Actually today I suppose to follow my friend go to Penang....cause I never been to Penang with friend without following any trip.....I just want to experience what is the feeling going with different friends....but then my mum just wont let me go......why?? cause she say is "Too far here to Penang....some more if take 3 hours plus to reach there the car will be going too fast....percentage of accident also higher......."
But problem is she worry I tomorrow will tired like hell...well at house I also already tired like hell cause whole day facing my pc screen non-stop....this one at least is better than facing my pc screen.....I really cry in the morning.....I really fed up of my parent that cant even understand a single thing I want........
I really feel that I shouldn't study form 6 in the first place.....if din't study then maybe now I will ended up in different ways......going where I want to go....do what I want to do....without anyone scolding at my ear........doing the studies that I like....regret listen to my parent.....they not always correct.......but they think they always correct....damn it......
They keep on telling me that I can go there when I start working but then that time money become a big factor for me to go anywhere that I want to go......now is not money factor......why they keep on see the negative side at the wrong time?? going there at least I can satisfy myself at this moment cause I really frustrated to stay inside this area any longer.....always going to the same place.....nothing new to see & feel......really bored bout this fucking irritating place....and no body look like understand me......they keep on say far...this...that....causing me to get a lot of negative feedback........cause of them I get many unhappy thing and they get the happy thing....so conclusion I die early is better.......
In next time I don't want to be the eldest in the house.....never get any good thing.....all good thing is reserved to those that younger than me........I hate my parent....!!
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