not happy day for me....

Even my experiment is so accurate and I'm the first to finish it today........but still I still not really happy cause almost everyone ignore me.....I really don't understand why......some more today no current....totally out.....and suddenly my class teacher come in the class and tell us that the main current box in office giving out a lot of smoke......she keep on telling us that if got teacher running later we also must follow run......

My homework really can fight with the height of mountain....so many homework to do....yet I still lazy to do cause I really don't have mood to do.....I need to take some one to transfer my fire to.....but then no people to transfer.....so the best I can do is online and relax myself.......

Actually my boy say he wanted to come take me.......but then in the end he din't come take me.....never mind.....he a while say can a while say can't......so how I want to tell my dad? is the answer yes or no? can't he decide it? so ended up I follow my dad back with a really angry mood........really feel want to suicide.....why in the hack of the world no people can make me feel free?? why all people want me to wear mask?? hate this world.....some time I rather give my life to other people.......

nice + hot day at kl....

At last after so long waited....the day have arrived upon me......so damn excited to go.....but then waited for the bus damn freaking long.....is like almost 1 hour for it to come....reach parlimen around 9 plus......not really fast the bus going.....if increase the speed maybe my bus can reach earlier compare to other 2 buses.....

There really is a freaking bored place.....they keep on talking and talking and talking like computer......no any difference in amplitude......making me remember of my chemis teacher way of teaching which usually make almost whole class fall asleep while she teaching.......parlimen member maybe can change their carrier into therapist.......surely will work on cant sleep patient.....

At suria klcc had a big money spend....cause I buy ice-blended chocolate and 2 large fries which already cost me Rm20 plus.....I really want to faint cause I no more money already.......some more when going back time I thought that we all will be trap in traffic jam but then luckily dint......if really trap then sure will be around night reach house..........

When going back time bus really damn hot....I really cant take it.....make me head ache after come down from the bus.....I really feel sorry for my friend cause I not purposely throw her food into dustbin.....really kinda mad at myself for doing such a bad thing on my own friends....><

stupid movie~

"Sucker Punch" is a totally very freaking suck movie.....totally not really get what they want to tell us about....cause till now I still thinking what that movie is about and I notice I still don't understand the movie.....really regret watching the movie......

At school suddenly no current...damn it.....no current at the wrong timing....but air-conditioner still work....fan can't be on...weird case for me......don't understand why air-cond can work and fan can't work.......some more I run away from stay back today....cause I totally very lazy wanted to stay back listening to teacher comment.....

Tomorrow will be going to kl parlimen......kinda excited to see what it really look like cause I prefer to see with my own eyes.....some more I still can go play around.....cant wait for tomorrow.....

off light help d a?

If you want to save earth then you should everyday off light la.....if you off for just for 1 hour in once a blue moon no use....if everyday off then really can help out a lot.....I wonder who tell everyone that off for one day in an hour can help a lot?? cause we everyday also use.....just one particular day dint use cant help out a lot....well I don't care so much......save earth need whole world population and not single individual......if only a single people does that and other dint do that mean is useless....a waste of time....

At  cyber off light making me feel so dizzy....cause play computer in dark is something that I cant get used to it even after a long time......some more so hot yesterday making so many mosquito under table bite me.......I really hate off light when hot day.....

having a short vacation on car....~

Since "Cheng Beng" around the corner......I go back to my dad's hometown to clean my grandma grave....kinda don't like to go there cause there really is a creep place....u can mistakenly step on other people grave if u dint walk carefully......yesterday is the first time I step on other people grave.....feel kinda sorry for this stupid action....I shouldn't step on it....cause I din't notice there got a grave behind me.......mosquito at there really poisonous......cause really damn itchy.......

Incredible that I can don't bath till I come home at night.....after lunch my dad take us back....so good.....cause usually he will take us back in the evening.....some more he suddenly offer to buy us durian.....wow.......my favourite fruit......but then out of 4...2 is spoil....some more got worm pop out when my dad open it.....worm so damn fat......eat till so fat......scarce me......next time better buy packaging durian.......actually can't blame also cause is a cheap durian....4 for RM10.....if good ones usually not this kind of price......

friendship more important than gf??!!

Such a sad thing that my boy put his friends position higher than his girlfriend position....if like that I rather to be his friend rather than his girl....actually is like that....when ever his friend call him to go out to hang out nor either to attend any party or dinner....he sure will bring me go attend if nothing to do between us....but then example when one of his friends ask him to play the same game as I'm playing he plays.....I ask him to play with me suddenly he give me lots of excuses....such as eye tired.....not interested to play that game any more....but then his friend ask him play he play which mean??? 

Another thing is that whenever his friend ask him to borrow money he borrow them....never mind helping friend...I don't mind.....but then what really make me angry is they borrow different amount pay back different amount...they think my boy is what?? did my boy owe them from the beginning?? no what.....for what they want my boy give them discount some more....they just my boy friend's and now wanting discount from borrowing money...damn it.......if is relatives then is ok but then this is too over....my boy another one.....not enough use still want to borrow other people money.....savings also don't know enough to support his lifestyle or his wife lifestyle....no money planning guy.....

More worst he tell me that he wanted to start do a small business in the night....some where that is strategic....but then till now I don't even see a shadow of his stall yet.....he keep on talk and talk and talk....no action at all........like what he promises me that he will go to a club to do exercise.....that promise is almost 1 month already and nothing is done.......he take things too granted already.....my mum keep on giving me stress asking me that when he gonna start his business since he is not young any more...he need to look further ahead if he really want to marry her daughter.........but I think he don't really plan to marry me.....that's why taking my advice as a rubbish......fine then......

anniversary....

Wee...today is my anniversary with my boy boy....faster congratz me man......I don't care.....school today kinda bored....and I get stress up...cause my teacher late let me go cause I walk so fast go to gate....then my muscle so pain cause long time din't do such exercise already.......I really give the wheather play around....a while rain heavily a while sun shining like no body business.....making the teacher so confuse whether want to let us go practice basketball a not....actually I got no idea how to play basketball.....I just simply enter this club.....

Went out with boy to buy cake.....nice cake but kinda too over sweet cause too many cream.....but how come cream can melt when hot?? really curious.....I never see any cream melt before......I sometime really admire myself cause haven finish homework can run around......most of my friend cant even run around after they finish their work.....><

at last....

At last my boy boy accompany me watch movie already...well movie of the day is "I'm number four"..kinda nice movie....but a bit too over effect....I treat my boy boy watch movie....hehe......after that went to walk walk around......then I pull him to go cyber cause I wanted to play game.....my day just ended up after dinner at cyber.....kinda bored actually when think back....><

go out with friends....

Went out with my once a upon a time hanging out buddy.....I actually late cause he reach my house when I haven even prepare finish.....so I a bit of shame of my time planning letting him wait me....insulting me......=(

Well actually we go to watch a movie but I don't remember the name.....funny comedy movie.....interesting also actually.....got a lot of element type of movie......while waiting to reach time for the movie I went around the shopping center and bought some revision book....my wallet really can say got almost empty....don't even know what I spend actually....after movie ended actually planned to immediately find my boy but then since my friend say he want me to accompany him eat dinner so I did.....meet my boy friend's bro at there......actually is nothing but then just mention it for fun purpose.......

Then after just finish eat not long my boy come pick me up...actually I want to go to his shop cause long time din't go there already....but then he today very early close shop cause food sold out fast today....lots of people.....hope he everyday also got such good business.....

My spec done already...went to take my spec and my mum is bankrupt this month due to spec.....3 people do spec and cost about RM600....not expensive actually cause 3 people do spec....some of my friend do spec for him/herself already more expensive than this price....I wonder what is the difference between branded and not branded spec?? hmm........so lazy to go to school tomorrow...><

expensive spectacle.....

Can u imagine that my spectacle is so expensive?? even is a package but then prices is still kinda high......Rm168...wow.......my brother spectacle is Rm200....due to his special case.....then my mum one more higher.....Rm218.......damn it.....so freaking expensive even is a Rm100 shop.....can u imagine if I go other branded shop do spec how much will it cost?? unpredictable......cant imagine that by myself.....

Meet my friend at shopping center....Giant.....she still owe me some money.....I bought pet food which cost me Rm23 and I forgotten to take my gift from the counter......kinda sad.......I forgotten thing easily again......then in the night I went with my boy for his friends reunion......kinda bored at there actually cause I really got no idea what the hack they talking bout......don't know why my boy tell me to go there with him......maybe I should never change my idea about being a vase in life.......=(

dint go for tuition feel so wasting money....

All time bang together causing me need to choose either one to attend....one is school extra class another one is tuition chemistry class......both also is given priority......but then I can't split my self into two clone to be present in both place at same time......so sad that I choose school and not tuition.....cause tuition is teaching chemistry which is kinda important compare to school but then if go to tuition then I got no transport to go.......

Really a tough life......always this condition happen to me.....both always must happen at the same time and I must choose either one to attend......pek cek......now I miss two tuition chemistry class and I can't imagine myself how to catch up on the lesson on next week class.......think also already wanted to bang my head to the wall......tuition teacher teach really efficient.......I don't know how I can study myself till so efficient.......=(

all my fault....

I strongly believe that it is all my fault....today what happen is really all my fault......actually I went out with my boy today cause he off ma.....then I causes him get a saman for not paying money for the parking lot.....feel so guilty.....some more I shouldn't be so stupid to tell him open his car window.....suddenly rain and both of us forgotten that car window not close making his whole car wet......luckily his car no problem....but then I still feel guilty....cause I shouldn't make him listen to me......if he din't listen to me open the car window nothing will happen to his precious car......all my fault.....

friend bf party~

I shouldn't go so early to wait them at station 1 cafe....cause the most earliest people reach there also almost 8 o'clock in the night already.....really pek cek wait all of them to come.....they say start at 7 o'clock but then finally ended up in diff time......my mum really correct.....teenager really change their mind every sec including me.....><

The party not kinda bad.....just that we all kinda doing out own talking only....cause we should sit in a round table and not in a rectangular table.....cause round table easy to talk to each other......but then there just don't have such a big round table for us.....luckily they like the birthday cake that I bought.....actually I plan to buy ice cream cake but then I don't know whether the birthday girl like which type......

Most funny is that the itchy hand guy make her car look so interesting......lots of balloon on her car.....I wonder how he get so much of idea.....did he get caught by alien? so much of idea......thank  god that I din't forget to put cream on the birthday girl face.....look like Korea people make up......so cute......><

forget to take my hp at cc??!!

Such a miracle that I forget to take my hp at cc......I left my hp at cc jor a....cause I too rushing to back till I forgotten that my another hp on cc table le.....but luckily that worker at there keep it at cashier counter for me lor.....if not sure I need to buy a new hp leh......confirm this month will bankrupt if like this.....

Feel kinda down cause I trouble my boy to take my hp at cc.....actually can put it at there but then I kinda worry bout my hp safety at there....so when he on the way back he take it for me already.....kinda don't understand cause they say eat prawn only will easily forget things but then I dint eat prawn how can I forget thing so easily??

exam so tough

Aiya....today did so badly in the exam....cause I don't know many question.......math I totally din't study so I cant blame my math if I fail but then biology I study a lot.....if fail I sure can die already cause I really cant afford to fail my biology........

Well the question out is as I predict it will be.....cause I don't aspect the teacher to prepare such a detail question since it just only a monthly test.....but somehow many people read so seriously and it get my attention to study like them also.....this school timetable is so weird......giving a us a little time to study heavy subject and lots of time to study easy subject.....really wondering how the school's society thinking.....

My chemistry is just another failure....don't even need to see already know my mark.....confirm it will be a bad mark........I don't have a strong confident that my chemistry for sure will pass but then I just hope the mark wont be so bad cause I don't want to be class clown.......

penang is far....too far.....

Actually today I suppose to follow my friend go to Penang....cause I never been to Penang with friend without following any trip.....I just want to experience what is the feeling going with different friends....but then my mum just wont let me go......why?? cause she say is "Too far here to Penang....some more if take 3 hours plus to reach there the car will be going too fast....percentage of accident also higher......."

But problem is she worry I tomorrow will tired like hell...well at house I also already tired like hell cause whole day facing my pc screen non-stop....this one at least is better than facing my pc screen.....I really cry in the morning.....I really fed up of my parent that cant even understand a single thing I want........

I really feel that I shouldn't study form 6 in the first place.....if din't study then maybe now I will ended up in different ways......going where I want to go....do what I want to do....without anyone scolding at my ear........doing the studies that I like....regret listen to my parent.....they not always correct.......but they think they always correct....damn it......

They keep on telling me that I can go there when I start working but then that time money become a big factor  for me to go anywhere that I want to go......now is not money factor......why they keep on see the negative side at the wrong time?? going there at least I can satisfy myself at this moment cause I really frustrated to stay inside this area any longer.....always going to the same place.....nothing new to see & feel......really bored bout this fucking irritating place....and no body look like understand me......they keep on say far...this...that....causing me to get a lot of negative feedback........cause of them I get many unhappy thing and they get the happy thing....so conclusion I die early is better.......

In next time I don't want to be the eldest in the house.....never get any good thing.....all good thing is reserved to those that younger than me........I hate my parent....!!

extra class on holiday.....

Looks like my holiday is no more holiday.....cause got extra class which need me to study....totally cant relax at all.......this year really so stressful......on the first day of the holiday I need to choose whether want to attend tuition class or school biology extra class.......

On second day I got class at tuition and at school....difference time so little that I really need to rush to go there.....hope can made it..... 

dirty place already~

Imagine a crystal clean swimming pool water now becoming a extremely dirty water.....with lots of tiny black things floating & swimming together with me......omg.....really cant stand it.........it becoming more worse when the water at some time increase in temperature.......due to too many people in the swimming pool......should be cold pool now becoming a hot pool.....like a sauna pool........I go there not to enjoy the hot but cold pool....now become like this looks like I have to go to find another new spot for swimming.....

Well renovation is done but then inside the bathroom looks not much difference....suppose should say no difference at all.......cause the water is still coming out at low pressure.....some place still no light......difference is very tiny which is the door can lock only.....= =

Hope that place will be lesser people cause I really don't know where got a nice spot to swim other than private club or something like that.....cause I not that often that goes swim......