i don wan camping...

Why my school so freaking weird one? why they must force student to go camp?? Is it they don't have enough money to cover that's why they force student to go to camp?? Well is no harm actually but then I not used to stay at some place there is no air-conditioner and stay in a big room for all one gender student to share a room....some more is so no privacy that when want to do anything regarding to toilet I must wait for a long time......

I really don't want to go to camping but then teacher in this school is so great at threatening student....they use thing such as having a 4 days kokurikulum attendance to make us go to the camping....some more is not cheap either.....around Rm50....to you might be a tiny amount but then to me that lack of money to use is totally not a small amount.....this amount some more is just stay there one night only....I wondering why don't they just make camp at school?? is more better that way cause many other school also make their own camping inside the school but then advantage is just staying inside a room......I hate to do activity that make myself cover in a few mm dirt........I kinda feel that this school is just too new and I hate new school with too many rules and regulation.....

tiring day.....

Feel so tired today.....actually I also don't know why I am feeling so tired....maybe due to my whole day facing the computer screen.....but then I really so long time din't face my computer screen....school now days is getting more and more stressful....too much pressure from teacher since the STPM result out today.......

Teacher keep on telling us to study hard so that we won't waste time at form 6 by failing....but then the syllabus is just so hard.....matrix syllabus far too easy than us...some more they got semester which make they having the advantage than us.....result still same standard but then quality is totally sky and earth......so not fair....but then life will never be fair......

Out with my boy boy from noon till night....actually I fall asleep on his bed in his room while waiting him to bath after watching movie named "No String Attached".....but then maybe I really too tired that's why fall asleep.....but then the movie is not exactly that nice....kinda bored movie....I thought it will be an interesting movie but then is not....so I wasted my money on something that is not worth.....sad.......

choose between beauty and health~

Well my replace school on saturday really make me very extremely tired......cause end at 2 in the noon...after that went to friends shop.....eat "wan tan mee"....I think that the food kinda bit expensive cause my house nearby here quantity for big and taste is extremely perfect cost exactly same at his shop for the price of small.....=(

Kinda sad cause waste money on the food....but then is ok cause is friend shop....so give him so face......his mum kinda cute and friendly actually......most incredible she fortune-telling bout us....really precisely accurate....but then I think back I feel that she haven talk bout me yet.....I wonder why she din't fortune tell bout me bout others she keep on talking......is it really I am a weirdo? =(

Plan to have another piercing at my ear but then worry that later will got side effect such as physical or mental disorder.......kinda serious if get pierce on nerves.....I want to get my ear pierce again but then my boy suggested that I should go to other shop that din't simply pierce other people's ear.......well he got a point at there but then I  so wanted to get it........>"<  

At same time worry that later my mum will shout at me cause haven finish study I pierce ear more than 1 pair of hole.....really confusing.....

really get my nerve on fire....

I really freaking angry today....thanks to my "good" friend he open my freaking cute chubby new pen drive and my special new key chain which cost RM8 from a shop in front of cinema called "Mini toons"....this RM8 included my energy to walk to shop....time for choosing the key chain......brain power to think.....car petrol fuel.....

He is really too over itchy hand....maybe because all know that he is famous in the class for his "attack" so nobody say bout him....but this time he really over did it....how can you simply take other people things without permission and take off my things into pieces?? I just only know I borrow it to my group member that is doing his job......not a group member that does not contribute anything.....

He took it without my permission and destroy it....fine.....I try to control my temper.....but what the hell fucking thing he did was no a single word of sorry or any phrases out of his fucking sucker mouth.....all he did was remain silent....dns......pkhkm.......pissed of till my limit....even god also got temper.....

Really cant cool down even now cause I buy both of this thing just 3 days....monday I bought it then today I bring it to skul.....not yet even a WEEK!!!!

valentine day....

Such a sad day this year valentine.....not having a boyfriend that can bring me go dating but then bring me go cybercafe during such a special day.....really very unhappy.......normal day if out dating with him I don't mind he  every time bring me go there but then on valentine day.....can you imagine???!!

Hard to believe that he plan to celebrate valentine with me at cybercafe....if like that I really rather go out with other guys than him......I really fed up and pissed off every time go there.....I know I should be a good girlfriend to accompany him at there but problem is who will accompany me to the places I wanted to go??

No present this year from my guy....maybe should ask my fans to give me this year....or my part time guy....>"< Just a joke....how can I got a part time boyfriend?? silly me.....XD

So jealous my friend get gift from his guy......hope next year can get one too......

valentine is around the corner.......

Yeah......valentine day is just around the corner.....I cant wait it till reach that day....

I wonder how my present will look like but in between I haven finish done my boy boy present.....wonder can I finish it in time?? I worry cant finish it in time cause got many stitching more to do.....even is just a tiny little picture....feeling my stitching so suck.......the picture look totally different from the guide they give me.....

But never mind.....I think he will like it as long I did it.....^^

8th day of cny~

Really cant take lor....so late sleep then so early wake up....wasei....really take my life away.......but most funny thing is my friend say I look very refreshing.......so curious bout that statement......

Actually this 8th day is used to pray for the Emperor Jade's birthday....actually I not in this tribe but I really don't know I follow them to celebrate for what purpose....maybe because one of my family member is this tribe so actually we also get addicted to it?? who know's?

When in class after taking the asam I still cant wake up.....barely open up my eyes.....really feel want to take a toothpick to open up my eyes......>"<

In middle of night really got a lot of nice fireworks.....unfortunately I forget to take my camera out so cant take any picture of this nice firework......but getting fat tonight cause 1+ in the morning still eating a lots of stuff.......

I cant afford to fat......=( 

3nd day of cny....

Yeah.....at last I got a chance to drink soup this month...cause last month I totally din't got a chance to drink soup that my mum made.....luckily yesterday my da da dad cook soup......nice jor.....miss mum's soup.....

Hard to believe that my dad allow me to stay at house when they went back to home town....so damn happy man....can you imagine how happy am I? even my aunt that pass through my dad's hometown also say is a such bored place......can imagine me every year go back?? totally bored to death.....

Well I just back from visiting my relatives houses.....kinda like to visit that place cause they very friendly not like my dad's place....all not friendly is never mind....problem is I totally in a strangers world......is there any meaning I go back?? just to become a doll for decoration....=(

But seriously I don't know that this year so many dad's relatives asking for me....when I went back they silent only....I din't went back they make so many noise.....what the hack......damn you.....

stupid frends...

Well I hate my friends....I hope I can get some more new friends....cause I feel my friends are totally stupid or too busy body....well actually is my friend's sister birthday....so if you know her sister or you are his sister friends then is okie to go......but problem is we totally not his sister friends and more obviously is I don't think is nice to disturb other's people party where all their relatives and his sister friend's are attending......

Is obviously weird.....even that guy is one of the group member but you cant so busy to attend other's people occasion.....don't ever tell me that you don't have your own thinking or own personal things to do?? even you don't have you also mustn't keep disturb other's people family.....

Last mon had a tiny party at his place and can see that his family is kinda not happy bout our presence at there.....why they just cant pick something else to do?? clever in studies but totally idiot in being a human.....can I say they fail to be a good human??

Being a part of another group doesn't mean you have to attend every member special occasion dude.....wake up man....!!

happy chinese new year.....!!!

Gong Xi Fa Chai to all chinese that celebrating.....how is your 1st day of chinese new year?? Is it awesome o terrible?? haha.......to me my 1st day kinda terrible cause this is the first time in the year I get an empty ang pau....really.....totally empty....at 1st I thought I see wrong but then I din't see wrong at all.....really empty....

Well that people really understand chinese real meaning but then they should at least put a piece of paper by writing a meaning full phrases inside there so that I could enjoy it......

My parent this year suddenly so good let me alone at house but then kinda annoying when my parent keep on call me.....even my aunt also keep on call me.....really annoying.....but then they just concern bout me....I should be appreciating them and not scolding them....^^

I wonder this year my money can reach till which part of the highest limit......cause looking at the steps that I going now I don't even think it will reach my last year limit at all....still at a far pace compare to last year.....

shit shit shit~

I hate my mouth sometimes....cause yesterday I saw one of my ex boyfriend in a shopping complex....telling to my da da that I wont be so bad luck to meet him again at cybercafe.....but then who will know that I really meet him again at there??

He is write there sitting with his fellow friends and playing all time best online game "Dota".....

His hairstyle so suck.....his previous hairstyle better than now.....some more he dint grow fat at all....still skinny like a branches of trees....maybe tree branches also stronger than him.....

Well happy to treat my da da eat yesterday.......but then he seem like so sad.....kinda unhappy.....don't know why......=(

bored party

Hate my friends for saying it will be an unforgettable party....hate my friend for taking my money to waste.....hate my friend for making my time fly away without doing things that I like.....really cant take it with them...

They say they want to cook due to chinese new year reunion party....well actually I suggested that we go outside and eat.....but no one want to listen to me.......all want to cook.....so okie....fine.....but the cook so bad.....chicken not nice......fruit is a disaster because got bugs inside the dishes.........most cant take it is they ignore my boy.....fuck la......my boy work so hard to get fire for them but then they din't even appreciate it....

When I tell them can cook already they ignore me.....hate people ignore me when I telling them something serious.....so fine......

Fork also not enough use....anything also not enough use.....all lack......pay so much and nothing goes well.....so wanted to ask them back my money cause actually I ate back my own potato and few bites of their fucking whole chicken only.......damn it.......ended up this party is the most suck party I ever went to.....