movie tonite...~

At last I got a chance to watch movie with my boy boy tonight...cause usually not enough time to watch with him due to my schooling time and my sleeping time......hehe...

But then I plan to go back after the movie ends.....cause he got to attend his friend just passed away dad.....pity his friend's dad cause he got to suffer so much only before he die due to cancer.......kinda pity you know?

It best to dead just in a beautiful condition....cause I envy those that die in a peace & comfort environment.....well just hope he wont too sad......

Cant wait to watch movie with him tonight but then I got a weird feeling today......kinda not nice feel.....

scary morning~

When the first moment I wake up this morning....my mum not telling me good morning but then telling me that is a big snake opposite of my house.....then after that she was telling me that my neighbor killed that thing already....

I wonder why my mum so shock cause is not the first time she saw the snake....previously when my family moved in to this housing area got once the snake enter my house compound......my mum reaction is not like this....this time it looks more different......

Well I still ended up to open my door even though I scare too....because I worry that there will be another snake waiting for me at some place cause as I remember snake like to stay in group.....so I really get afraid this morning~

so many homework~

Recently I got no idea what's going wrong cause I got so many thousand of homework.....is it near holiday therefore teacher give so many homework?? well homework help me improve but problem is I got not enough time to do it......I lack of time cause I keep on going out & got tuition class to attend......

Some more now really near chinese new year I got more thing at my list to complete it....damn it.....

So many things till I don't know want to do which one first....

More headache is my biology project deadline is end of this month.....my group members look like not very nervous bout it cause we actually got not much time left....they seem to like to waste time doing nothing rather to discuss with the group what to do and what not........=3=

Kinda sad why I get this group.....keep on wasting time......not effective also.....I love doing things effectively.....

hate you~

I don't like to talk with people that keep on insulting what I say.......keep on insult....talking like he know the real me.....like he understand the whole world thing.....like he is my parent......I hate him....I hate him......I HATE HIM!!!

I swear that I would never want to save his number anymore in my handset.....all he know is just keep on think at positive side....is good but too over positive is definitely not good......cause I really want to vomit out my blood when talk to such irritating person.......like the hack he get a good job now....some more he is too confident bout his life style.....life is not always must insult each other only can survive.....life is also friendship,love,family and lots of thing.....he really think he genius??

I just really cant understand myself....why I give my number to such an idiot perhaps? I hate those people that think they understand all but actually they understand nothing much difference than I did.....

shocking day~

Maybe because yesterday is a public holiday so no matter where I go still will be a lot of people....

Morning I wake up around 9 to go to market to buy chinese new year shirt.....well what can I say really a lot of people....even road also become one way cause double parking......some more I go to the restaurant near that market is so terrible.....the food all is almost nil....nothing more to be left for me to eat......luckily still got something.....if not I die give my parent see........

Horrible enough when I want to go to watch movie I meet so many of my old classmate and friend at there.....cant believe myself when suddenly a friend of mine message me and say "Hey, I just now beside you only.Did you see me??" I so shock man....I never ever thought that he will be beside me....really had a big shock.....

Well so shock to me also when suddenly in the middle of movie when I check my handset my boy say he already at outside the cinema waiting for me......haha......I really cant believe my own eyes until I saw it.......

Even I went to Tesco yesterday and saw few people that I know again......really......I feel that is almost like everywhere I go also will meet a person that I know......feel so so happy cause suddenly got a feeling that I know a lot of people but then many people either don't know or don't remember me anymore......

so fired up study leh...^^

I really got no idea what happen to me but then today when my chemistry teacher is teaching I din't fall asleep but then fired up to hear what she will be teaching to me....I really damn concentrate on her class today by not falling asleep.....some more today I really study a lot on my chemistry during my free time which is 3 period without teacher teaching.....cause my teacher absent....so nice man....

Today as usual din't stay back for school.....I run away from school cause don't want to hear some one keep on talking without really can help me out with my project stuff.......went to shopping but then din't buy any of chinese new year clothes due to bankrupt......tomorrow plan to go swimming at night.....wondering if my friends want to come and join me and my boy swimming.......maybe they won't cause they just went to swim today......

I pick for my mum a chinese new year shirt but then actually is my boy pay so can conclude that he buy....^^

Next thursday no school so I gonna go to buy my mum a shirt by myself....hope got money on that day....wondering where should I be going this thurs and fri cause I wont be having school.....^^

I make my mum disappointed......

Feel kinda harsh when I made my mum disappointed.....I promises her to change the shoe that I just newly bought to her but then I din't change it to her.....cause that shoe is just bit too small that I bought......so actually at first I insisted to change the shoe but then she doesn't want to change it cause she say is troublesome for me......but then when I go out yesterday night she say change the shoe only la......so ended up I took the shoe out but then I din't change it......

Why I din't change it?? cause my boy thought I can out till 11+ in the night but then I actually around 10.30 in the night must go back....when he bring to cybercafe he actually forgotten what he actually need to do.....really.......when I went on his car I told him already that I need to take the shoe to change......he heard it.....but then maybe because I say "If you don't to change also nevermind.....I lie to her...." that why he decided not taking me to change the shoe.....is all my fault......I should say out that phrase.....now making my mum so disappointed....making my mum leg suffer due to the small size that I bought to her........

I am just so failure as a daughter.....I just can't help her in anything that she wanted........I just cant study well....don't know how to do housework......don't know how to cook......don't know how to even become a family supporter.......really.......sometimes I just hate myself cause I don't know how to be a better person in a family & society.......at least among friends I wish to be noticeable......

Not gonna run......

What in the world is this?? Why my school is forcing everyone to run?? I don't like running cause make me smell really bad....some more they want us to practice in a super duper hot sun.....I cant stand it.....I hate hot sun anyhow......so I din't go and call my mum to pick me back.......

They really is a freak cause no body in my previous school is forcing student to go run for school.....they really is too much......how can a possible fat person run for so long under the hot sun?? later if I faint a lot of people will worry bout me.....just to prevent people worry bout me school is scolding us for absent....damn you....

This end week of my school is only the real competition of running.....I still thinking of going or not cause whole day no studies and just running.....feel like is just a waste of time man.....I don't like to run cause make me smelly is a problem.....another problem is later I will be black......I got enough black already........

stupid thing~

Well I feel is kinda stupid for going to listen to a teacher talking again bout our school project......so ended up run away from school.....but then who know that I got no transport back.....so I call my boy.....but then I got no more any coin to use for the public phone....so ended up I go to call my mom by borrowing my friend handset.....is a really bad thing to say that both of them come and fetch me at same time.....OMG....

So ended up I follow my boy.....he take me go back home......my mom was like so damn angry to me cause she think I play around with her man......but really I din't play around with her.....I thought he wont be coming to fetch me so I call you mom........really don't want to make you angry at me......it's all my fault for not bring own handset to school........really a bad day for me since I make my mom angry.......

my project......

I gonna finish my school project.....I cant afford to waste anymore time....cause is really a burden.....well today I din't go to school just to name this grasses that I have press.....kinda ok if I din't been picky.....but then after that I look at it only I notice that most of them is from the same family of grass.....oh man......does I really have to do it again?? if really have to do again I hope to have lots of time for this one.....I just worry that it wont dry in time only.....

My insect is kinda like a piece of failure......all looks like very imperfect......my teacher want us to to until it look so perfect but then we fail her....sorry teacher for not able to reach your standard.......I am just a noob student with a bad skill of making things look perfect........>"< 

I wonder how my other team mates are doing their project.......wonder whether theirs are better than mine or vice versa.....really curious......

skul starts....

My classroom so far.....just walk for only one week feeling like doing exercise everyday before & after the school time.....even do exercise during the school time...really toooo far already.....well I feel so missing my computer cause dint touch it for almost a week already.......totally a week leh.....

After school so many thing need to do......revision.....home work.......then resting time.....really feeling very busy.......some more now chinese new year is around the corner.....making me feeling more busy cause got many thing need to be prepare.......well gonna xdo.......wait for my next post.....XD

Dulan....

Today so dulan man.....I wan go shopping but parent don't let me go shopping....then today morning till evening play xdo keep on losing......no winning at all....then I thought I will got a "maid" to help me buy breakfast but then who know that the "maid" wake up so late cause my breakfast fly away.....some more suddenly got a people appear and say me lan si cause no choi him.......so pek cek ar today....~~


Some more today so hot man.....I keep on sweating non stop......like bathing without a shower.....then eat hot stuff more sweat......not that only....I need to force myself to study so that my parent will happy......satisfy mental........but who will satisfy me?? I wonder......

happy new year~

Happy New Year everyone......hope this year gonna be a good year for you all......for me is not a good year cause I am sick on the first day on the year......so great day I think.....but I don't know whether I am really sick a not cause there is no fever just a normal cough.....well my friend yesterday went to Sunway countdown.....I wonder how the condition is.........really curious........

I think today I gotta less talk cause I run out of voices......wondering why I will cough until like that.......is it swimming fault o I gonna sick already on this year?? I haven sick for 3 years already.....cant believe now I sick.......maybe just a temporary cough.....hope school reopen I gonna be back as usual.......but then I wanted some extended holiday......XD

mistaken....

Well really got people mistaken remembering my birthday......suppose my birthday is on 30th but then remember it till 31st......I not yet reach the last day of the year man.......so wanted to knock their head to wall......well at least they remember it.......even is late wishes but then I still appreciate it.....thanks to all that wishes me happy birthday at Facebook & call me to wish me.....really appreciate it......


My birthday cake nice.....my mum thought it will be a very expensive cake but then is not......not yet reach RM50.....I still very curious how much it is.....I don't know that there will be so nice birthday cake with such a price.......maybe I should do more research.....tonight is gonna be the last day of the year....tomorrow is gonna be a new day with a new year......new beginning should begin and old stuff should be left as memory.......ready everybody for countdown tonight?? I thought of going to Sunway to countdown but then I think there will be a big jam every place that popular tonight......I should stay at house or go other place to countdown perhaps.....


Chinese New Year is coming near......I can't wait to get ang pao......some more I really can't wait to go shopping.....but shopping without money is never gonna be a good day....cause you can't buy the things that you like if you don't have money........hoping got some one sponsor me........