happie.....

So freaking happy today.....wanna know what I did today??? Well....it all starts when I went shopping with my aunt , my uncle and my aunt beloved guy without forgetting my brother.......had some wonderful lunch moment inside Lavender of Aeon Bukit Tinggi.....then continue shopping until about 2+ pm we went home......but before we went home, we stop at the brand new branch of "Chatime" at Bukit Tinggi........really shock when I saw so many queue up at there......


Then at night my birthday celebration held at 88 Steamboat Restaurant.......I don't really like that place much because it's hot and small.......some more it'll make me full of those oily smell which I totally don't like and I don't think neither anyone will like it.........but then it's worth to go because it's a buffet style and besides steamboat there are also barbecue.....I really like barbecue but then indoor barbecue really makes indoor very hot.......


Activities continue at my house with some beer and of coarse the main dish cake......It's a nice cake but then due to everyone is too full the cake is normal......even I feel the same way.......I feel my boy today very gentleman because he help me to drink half big bottle of beer where my aunt tell me to drink but he replace me to drink it......aw...he so sweet today.....but that is just today sweet......XD

day before my important day....^^

Well....my important day is tomorrow......I'm kinda curious bout tomorrow event....but after he come and pick me up....I not curious bout it anymore.......I get pissed off on the eve itself.....wanna know why?? I'll tell you why.....this is because all of his fault.....I thought on my birthday eve my boy will at least bring me go out to eat and have a nice wonderful candle dinner.......who will ever thought he lazy to go out and call his mum to pack for both of us..........

More worse I thought he will reserve the table for tomorrow by himself but then things become up side down......it seems to be I will be reserving the table for myself tomorrow.......damn it......since he say he wanna celebrate my birthday then he should ready everything all by himself and not I keep on reminding and helping him......I really wonder I'm planning for my birthday...........

Actually I wanna buy durian for my family members but then he doesn't want to accompany me to buy it....he say weather hot and totally not suitable to eat durian.....but still I wanna eat durian cause I haven't eat durian for quite some time already........I thought he will understand me but then I really don't know anything more......


But still I have a wonderful time on the morning itself.....cause my aunt bring me go shopping and it's really fun.......the best part for me is first time went to Empire shopping center which is nearby Subang Parade.......kinda big complex but then things is expensive than what my place sell.......

i hate christmas eve this year...!!!

Today I get so pissed off and got a lot of embarrassing moment.......let me talking bout embarrassing moment first......I wake up early today and represent my mum to go to temple with my aunt......after done praying we went for shopping and that is the moment my brother start embarrassed me......no matter where my aunt go he keep on embarrassed me until I reach home......really no face.......

At night, that is the moment where I really pissed off......my boy invite his friend to dinner with us......and this friend that he invite is in relationship.......actually I hate waiting....and this friend of his really pissed me a lot......when my boy call him and ask his location he keep on say coming.....and then when my boy made the last call he say he still in his house and waiting for his girl........with this answer I really fire up.......cause I waited so long just for his girl to decorate herself.......more worse when she reach it's just like normal wearing and that took her almost 1 hour to do it??? what the fuck are you doing in your house???!!! sexual intercourse???? Condition got even worse when my this girl apologize for her late........if you really wanna apologize then pay the bill.......not letting my boy mum or my boy himself to pay the bill.......fuck you bitch.........stupid until brainless.......you got beauty so what?? you're no difference like an asshole ugly bitch.........I hate you!!!!!

asshole gal.......

I really pissed off by a girl just now.....as you can see now facebook got a type of christmas virus which keep on tag people and spam their wall like no body business.....and this asshole girl come to my wall and post a wall post that scold me for spamming her wall and tag her.....and I like wtf.........she thought she so damn famous and pretty that's why I wanna tag her inside the post.....fuck her......she is ugly and not even famous at all.......she din't even feel curious why I tag her.......then I reply her back with scolding of coarse and she like delete me from her friend list and I'm so happy......she really is an asshole and an idiot........hell ya you bastard bitch........don't even add me back......

my mum birthday......

Aw....my mum have a very nice day today.....cause it's her birthday.......she receive a present from my second aunt which is a crystal bracelet.....a present from my uncle which is a healthy drink and my smallest aunt which is a birthday cake......quite nice the cake but then I don't really coffee and almond so I din't eat much.........

Actually I regret telling my boy bout this celebration cause I make him so bored at there.....I know how bored it would be cause I experience it a lot of time thus I don't want him to experience the same thing as me......but still I make it happen........hope he doesn't mad bout me........

I'm happy that my mum happy........I don't want anyone of my close people to have a sad face......really......I rather my ownself sad and not them.......

i have watch it...!!!

Well I went to watch the latest "Mission Impossible" produce by Tom Cruise....actually the movie kinda nice but then it's such an unfortunate that they din't put any subtitle for those whose can't really understand much bout english.......still in between there are a section where they do a lot of talking.....and I don't really like that talking part cause it's bored.......

Most interesting inside the movie for me is the BMW sport car which I don't know which series can have a touch screen on the front mirror.....and the sport ring is so freaky awesome man.......I wish I can sit inside a car for even a sec......feel like wanna see the real car with my own eyes.....it's really nice car for me.......I never thought even a car can have a touch screen......really cool........

And it's actually the first time for me to see Tom Cruise......I always hear people talk bout him but then never really know who is that person......based on the movie I think he's just normal guy with nothing special.......plus he got few obvious wrinkle that I think he's really old........not really handsome either(to me)..........

I wanna apologize to my bf  for bringing him to watch a movie without a subtitle due his english is not so good and thus I don't think he can understand the whole movie well.......more worse when there's a part with lots of talking and that makes him really bored........I feel like a failure gf for that moment.......

I wanna say that the Tgv at Bukit Tinggi now sucks......why??cause when you watch the movie until very exciting, all of the sudden the screen gone black and it's like need to wait so long for them to fix the problem....damn it....at first I thought Bukit Raja Tgv only got problem but now even Bukit Tinggi also got problem.........they really gonna lost my trust on them...... 

I'm worry......

I'm so freaking worry now....I worry that I can't find a job now....cause all I got now is only a SPM cert and this can't help me a lot.....since a lot of people having tons of cert and I only have a few.......I'm kinda tension perhaps.....

But then my dad tell me no worries.......he tell me that next month find job also can cause I just done my exam and I din't relax for quite sometime......which is also true.....I really hope next month still got some job for me.......cause I never work before......really makes me very worry.......

last day.....and I'm free!!!

My last day exam is today....and also my freedom is today......at last.....I waited so long for this moment......luckily my bf no work today......I'm so freaking happy cause he accompany me to have my lunch and come pick me up when I finish my last exam early.....and most freaking funny is when I walk out of the exam hall.....cause it seems to be I'm the first to walk out of there and my friend that sit right in front of me get shock...cause he used to be the top in class and he cant even finish it......but I still thinking what is so difficult bout that paper cause it's an objective paper.....no worries man.....XD

Night I not gonna attend that stupid event any more.....I'm not gonna waste any more money on them since they are not worth to do so........they are just a bunch of "friends" and not friends.......further more I not really close with them so there is no reason for me to dump so much money on them.......

last paper and that's it.....

Alright then.....next tuesday is my last and only paper.....I thought can free more faster but then is impossible cause the paper is at noon so in the morning I still need to study.....from thursday till now I haven touch my book yet....cause the last paper is an objective so I can use my luck to guess answer.....XD

Recently I really sick.......due to not enough rest time and sleep ended up getting diarrhea.....most worse I don't even feel like eating anything.....some more is Math exam.......cant think of anything other than toilet.........but still manage to ans all I can and left those I don't know blank.........

Hope can faster finish exam cause I really want to go to cinema to watch tons of new movie.......all is like so interesting to watch and it's so irresistible........holy shit......XD

last paper bio tml.......

Tomorrow is my biology paper 1 for this year STPM.......and still today I din't even flip my book.....from morning till noon keep on watch online anime.....and that's not all......later in the late evening I'm gonna watch "Petaling Street" with my beloved boy.......aw.......I can't wait to watch the movie later....it's been so long ever since I watch my last movie.....

Well....these few days I sleep quite late......due to sms with my friends in the middle of the night.....some more wake up kinda late in the morning causing me don't really have time to study for my Math paper 1 & 2 for this year STPM.......hope I can get so luck on these two days......

what a day.....

Wow.....I woke up early today but then ended up go out shopping with mum.......really unbelievable......but thanks to going shopping I found a bag for my Chinese New Year......yeah...~~

Night totally got no time to study cause I want to go out with my boy to have some time together.......lalala....so need to sacrifice my sleeping time to study........plan to go night market but then the weather is so not consistent thus planning always change.......hope when Chinese New Year it'll be a shinny day....^^

break record....

Wow....I can't believe myself.......I din't do my last part of the exam paper which took away fully 15 marks and I took so long to do a graph which last time I took around 20 minute to finish but now it's like 45 minute to do it?? damn......really slow man.....I really hate myself for doing things that is important in slow motion......argh.....

More worse I did my 300 word plus essay in around 40 minute....which I got 2 essay to do actually......really suffering man.....my hand is paining like hell but still need to write non-stop to chase the time.......words becoming like worms....hope examiners can understand my handwriting........XD

I really did badly in this public exam which is also an important exam due to my 1 and the half year of studying........I just hope can get a normal result cause I don't want to disappoint my parent......they really hope I can enter university but then I got no interest to go in......so conflicting man.......

Wish me good luck guys........I really need a lot of luck in this exam.......I don't want to get an 4E result.....

stpm is tomorrow!!!!!?????

I'm so freaking nervous....tomorrow is my public exam......so worry can't do well cause I really got no mood to study tomorrow subject and totally got no interest to do any further studies.....all I got is mood to play online game....which mean death is waiting for me by tomorrow and future......lol........

Such a good morning cause I wake up and not long after that my breakfast arrive in front of my house.....all I need to do is just make an easy phone call and then here the food comes right in front of me without I paying even a single cent for it.......free food is always delicious.......>3<

Yesterday night really terrible.....go to cyber and ended up go back home early due to some technical problem at there......since I reach home freaking early I ended up go study till late night.....which is around 1 plus on today morning.....my eyes really heavy....wondering if tomorrow I wake up around 4 plus in morning and do my last minute revision can help a not......cause last minute work always cant enter brain well.....argh.......really pissed me off with this public exam.....

Maybe because of stpm is very near....these few days had a very bad dream......for an example like today morning I dream that during my stpm I forget to bring my stuff and I was like freaking nervous thus fail my exam......yesterday morning I have even weird dream....I dream that my boy ex-girlfriend took my handset and show him I hide another guy from him which even I really don't even know bout it..........and then he like totally believe in her and break with me in my dream......really scary dream......but still I cant understand something......is't till now he still don't believe me or is't his ex still love him?? I really got a bad feeling bout this......I totally don't know why..........=(

tiring leh....

Today I'm so tired.....cause morning morning got to wake up to attend P.A seminar at Victor English Academy which located at Bukit Tinggi......never thought that when I reach I still have to wait them to come and open the door.......I waited like don't know how long but all I know is that morning is really hot and time pass really slow that time........actually the seminar kinda bored cause my teacher just repeating what he teach at class....but his note really helping me a lot cause it's like a shortcut for me to study in short time.......

Went to help my boy at his shop at night......really so tiring cause suddenly got so many people come to his shop and eat......I don't even have a time to eat......more worse is my boy keep on doing food and he nearly faint cause he's like only after finish keeping only eat which is around 10+ p.m.......pity him.....busy until no time to eat at all.......

What's even worse is the time is so rushing for me today....cause my seminar start at 11 in the morning until 3.30 in the noon....then he around 4 plus come and fetch me to his shop.....which then it's like only 15 minute or less for me to bath cause I reach home it's like almost to 4 o'clock already.......I really hate today cause I'm so pissed off due to some personal reason....damn it........some more I need to rush to McDonald to meet my friend at there to take my book which he forget to bring to seminar to return the book to me after he borrow the book so long and still haven't read finish..........I wonder what he reading actually.....he told me he read 7++ hour but then my book is like so thin and he haven even read finish......maybe he busy to flirt at his future girlfriend......lol.......

opps....chemis tuition got skip..!!

Had a tiring day today.......first of all wake up so early in the morning makes me really sleepy through out the whole day....secondly need to go tuition for like 2 and half hour without any of my friend.......really bored me out man........then thirdly had a far away from home dinner.......

Wake up early because I though my aunt will come early to fetch me to go to blood donation but who knows that her boy want to cut his hair first before go to donation......waited him like more than half hour then had my breakfast at "Pak Li Kopitiam" at Bukit Tinggi 1.......food is delicious when I'm hungry........most sad thing is I though can donate blood but then the nurse don't give me donate cause my iron is 121 and ideal for donation is 125......damn it.......but still happy cause my weight gone down slightly.......

Tuition really bored when there is no people talk to.....especially the friend that sit beside me come for the next class which I don't know at all.......bored makes me sleepy too......and it's like for the whole class I so so sleepy......feel so wanted to sleep for the rest of class but then can't cause it's like so don't give respect to the teacher......

Far away dinner cause my uncle want to meet his friend at Setia Alam.......so ended up my dinner at there too cause I follow my aunt to had my dinner.......we turn the whole area to find a suitable shop but then ended up have my dinner just beside my uncle gathering place......actually we want to have our dinner at my uncle gathering shop but then due to too many people at that shop....we got no choice but to change to next shop......not bad steamboat...........

Most happy thing is at last got a chance to drive for the first time on the road after my driving exam.....kinda nervous but then still manage to cool down......but unfortunately my aunt boy really freak out cause I suddenly turn and he claim that I din't stop a while to look around at T-junction.........and I'm thinking it's night so driving should be more easy since got car light to inform me.......but still I know I got wrong cause I din't put my mind of cyclist and pedestrian........

not worth

Had a bored school day.......it's like wasting my time at school for the whole day for nothing........cause before recess time it's like keep on talking and giving us speech for don't know what thing.....then after done talking teacher's only giving blessing......hard to believe but really got some teachers cry.........I'm not crying for worthless stuff.....XD.......should say that my relation with teachers are just normal and nothing much extra so no feeling for them......so not crying when want to leave them.......

After recess is the main reason I went to school.....I want my exam slip.......no exam slip which mean to ticket to enter to exam hall.......I really shouldn't lost it......after that I though need to arrange tables but then my 3 missing friends starting from recess time help all of us to arrange all the tables and chairs....such a good friend....no wonder they got such a good relation with teacher and other class mate......I won't do such good stuff cause no body gonna appreciate me when I do it..........

Actually can go back home early but due to my driver friend who want to photocopy something makes me feel that whether the school  finishing early or late no difference at all......cause I still reach house at regular time.......

And the secret of this that I have been keeping for this guy is gonna reveal soon....cause I think almost all of the friends that he always hang out together knowing a little bit of it and they can guess it already.......my silence is like gonna break when his friends ask me more bout it.....wonder how long can I keep it.....I really want to voice it out man......I want to makes things really interesting.....^^

don't read...XD

Time pass so fast....without I notice now is really around the corner.....my real exam is like another week to go.....oh god......I haven't study finish yet....please don't so fast exam.......I cant memorize so many stuff in like just a week.....it's gonna kill me if I can memorize so much in so little time.......hope my exam wont get too low grade....that's all I hope for......

Tomorrow gonna wake up to go to school to do some last min stuff......hope I tomorrow can wake up....that's the main point.......I keep on wake up late during holiday......it's like wake up almost noon and then study a while then watch drama then study few more hours then sleep.....it's like so not enough study......but then I don't know how to make myself wake up early......any tips to wake up early?? I mean without using alarm.....it's difficult right??? even my alarm also can't wake me up......damn it.......I feel as though I'm becoming a part of a pig.......sleep like pig...XD

Well gonna go do my revision......can't afford to waste anytime more on blog or games.......hope I wont disappoint my parent......but still I think I will cause I'm not a clever girl......

tuition makes me really tired.....

Monday is my important day cause it's obviously my dating day with my boy.....all of the sudden my tuition teacher want to do an extra class on monday which is also a public holiday....really don't know how he think....but luckily the tuition is my dinner time...can help me a lot for my diet.....still I'm tired.....tired of listening to my tuition teacher talking non-stop.....I think today he's really in high mood to teach.......

Today shouldn't go eat dim sum because the shop that I usually go is really pack of people....both of us waited like almost half hour only got place....so many people at there waiting for empty seats......but that is not peak hour....it's just only the starting of 11 in the morning which I think should be not so crowded.....but who know it's still so crowded....I'm wondering how crowded will the shop be around 8+ in the morning.......after all the waiting got a place for both of us but then ended up sharing table with other family cause the table really too big for both of us only.......

Then after done eating went to cyber and had few hours non-stop games......really hurt my eye a lot but still I'm happy cause my house pc just can't support the high graphic online games......miss most of my games a lot.......

Most irritating thing is when I reach my house it's like raining so heavily until I want to close my main gate also difficult......but still manage to close it in condition where I looks like just finish take my bath.......when I close my gate......it stop raining......and I was like "Fuck youuuuu".....I'm so pissed off......argh.......

holiday.....

Well my holiday started early......since thurs I already on holiday...cause my friend doesn't want to go to school so I got no transport to go thus I follow her absent from school like almost a week....this thursday got to go back to school to take care of STPM stuff......kinda troublesome to go back again for like those stuff can done in few minutes.....then can't go back early which really irritate me very much....

weird mind....

It's really weird.....my tuition teacher and my school teacher really say a lot of opposite stuff......kinda confusing want to follow who during exam time......from what my school teacher last minutes tips........it's really like so unlogic that what we practice in the class is not really important at all.....but then my tuition teacher say that what we learn should just apply onto the exam hall....argh......conflict thing......

Last day for the week really makes me happy......but then after school never thought can meet my ex-boyfriend brother at mamak shop.......together with his big gang of friend which looks like bad kid to me......still I never dream can meet him at there.....some more I just like sitting beside his table and he saw me eat so much food.....really feel so embarrass.......

driving test....??

Aw.....my driving test fail.....that's what I told my parent when they ask me.....but actually the truth is I PASS!! before my turn to sit inside the car for the test...I'm just so freaking nervous.....tons of butterfly in my stomach.....really feel like pee in my pants....I'm really that nervous.....but luckily I pass....if not I gonna waste my money to re-sit for the test again......

Feel kinda lucky today cause I got a chance to meet so many of my friends......never thought that the day end up so well.....so happy got a chance to meet them up.......

But the most unforgettable thing to me is when the examiner that sit next me while on the road is freaking weirdo.......he ask me whether can watch movie with him a not....and I was like wth.....simply ask a girl out without knowing who is that......really creepy but then he actually kinda good cause he talk to me while I'm in a very stressful condition........thanks to him I did quite ok..........

My boy actually want to fetch me when I done my exam.....but then his car battery suddenly give him trouble....so I ended up back with teacher car......reach house kinda late actually......but then still not late as my uncle..........

last lesson......

My last driving lesson is done....now I'm waiting for the real driving exam which makes me really nervous.......cause if I fail at either one part of inside which mean I need to re-take inside test again.....but I don't think on the road gonna fail....but still there is a possibility I gonna fail all too.....really need some luck for it....

Lesson is like so bored....cause I know how to do everything and now need to re-do so many time make me feel so fed up......got a girl gonna take same day test as me and she kinda stress.....easy thing she need to do so many time......hope she can pass with flying colour too......

I predict it gonna rain while I had my class but then it end up a sunny and hot day....which makes me feel like sitting inside an oven to be cooked.....really so hot......dark sky but then no rain.....all of sudden the shinny sun come out and say hello with me......argh....

Kinda rushing in time cause I reach house kinda late.....then my boy din't open his shop today because his helper dint come today.....so his shop is closed and then we went out cause I don't have tuition too.....dinner spot is "Classic" which got lot of people at there........prices at there is similar with mamak.......variety of food at there......service kinda ok.....toilet really clean.....maybe the shop newly open so the toilet so clean....well we'll see bout that.......

nervous.....

Tomorrow gonna be my last lesson on driving lesson....after this on the next monday I gonna go to take the real driving test....really kinda nervous and kinda bankrupt........I wonder if I din't pay finish my learning money and pay finish the extra money will they accept it a not?? So worry bout now.....no money to pay finish all in one shot....cause is absolutely not a small amount......

happy deepavali....

Every year in the midnight the atmosphere around my housing area is so lively....tons of fireworks are fire into the dark sky......really nice to look at those fireworks...

Woke up kinda late in the morning.....luckily still got some time for me to do some revision......two friend invite me to their house for deepavali....so as usual I need to wait for all the people to come and go together since not all of us know the way.....then reach our first friend house about 4pm which we promise we'll reach there bout 3+....it's due to the late people that reach on the spot we promised......

The most incredible thing I ever do in my life today is walk in a clump of dirty water right in front of our first house visit.......this is due to raining season and her front house is flooded.....really kinda disgusting to walk in that clump of water.....luckily I din't wear long pants...if not my pants surely will be absolutely dirty....

Then we leave for the second and last house around 5+ and reach there around 6......then had some talk and leave her house around 9+.....din't had my dinner at my second friend house cause I want to diet and doesn't want to eat the same thing again.....the food that they serve is similar with the first house we visit....I really get fed up of eating it so I skip my dinner and had some fruit that they serve........I think I really doesn't give her face cause totally din't eat the food that they cook.....but it's really not good to force people to eat......

All of sudden my friend got an inspiration and wanted to hang out.....since they got no place to go so I suggested to go to a newly open cafe which located beside Sino....when reach there one of them say "This shop looks empty......are you sure it's open??" I was like wtf.....you guys no place to go so I suggest this place then now so many complain....then I was thinking why in the first place she doesn't want to suggest her ideal place?? damn it......

The most horrible thing is went we go to her ideal place the food at there sucks......if they follow my suggestion and go to the newly open cafe maybe it might end up in different condition cause the cafe got 2 different theme and I think is really interesting and attractive.......nah.....I don't want to give a damn bout it anymore.....maybe I gonna pick that cafe when they want to held my birthday party.....XD

absent again?

Aw...this week I din't go for school for like 3 out of 5 days....really kinda annoying writing so many letter with lots of new excuse.....I kinda fed up writing so many letter in one shot......monday and tuesday din't go to school due to own reason....but now even friday I cant go to school due to no people want to come fetch me to school.....

My usually friend that come fetch me today last go to school due to class cleaning.....and thanks to her I have to absent from school again......actually got people can come take me but then due to his own sake he doesn't want to come take me....nah.......I don't give a damn bout the school anymore cause I really don't like school.....SO FAKE MAN......I suddenly love school a lot......I suddenly feel myself so creepy........=,=

last day at school....

My last day at school today...cause it's gonna be holiday for one week due to deepavali celebration.....so nice.......as I say....paying time is never been a fun thing to do.....cause is so expensive man.......around 12 people that go and still need to pay RM7.40???!!!!!! wtf??!!!!

I still thinking actually the person that tell us how much we need to pay got exclude any person a not?? cause it's like so impossible gonna be so expensive man......with all the present and those stuff....damn it.....according to my experience most probably he included the cost for his special event....and that makes it he actually not really want to chase her after all........cause if a guy want to chase a girl then he should spend some money and not chasing a girl with our money........noob guy chase a noob girl.....cant blame them after all.....XD.....some times I really hate outing for birthday celebration cause although so many people go but still need to pay so much for it........really wondering the person that count got eat any of my money a not....damn......

wonderful for her?

Today is that "girl" birthday....so he really makes a lot of surprises to her......I think she might be touched by his surprises perhaps......it all begin like this...XD.......first we gather at McDonald nearby my housing area....after that waited for 2 guys that late for about 1 hour.......birthday cake is ice cream....cause McDonald got a type of ice-cream with choc top so they buy around 19 choc top ice-cream with only 9 choc top with candles while others is normal choc top......really creative mind they got there.......after that they go to a field to put sky lantern which I got no idea where they got it.....as I know that sky lantern is ban but still he manage to buy it......

Luckily I follow his car...if not I think I wont know such a good stuff.......when we send the first people go back.....he suddenly say got another surprise for her....then he give her his car key to let her open his car bonnet......guess what stuff is inside?? it's a lot of balloon......only one of the balloon have a nut tied and hanging a birthday card on the balloon.......kinda interesting actually.....never thought can see such thing live.....this time I feel really worth to go out but then.........wonder how much will the cost be?? cause I don't think is cheap with so many special thing......=(

nice sunday.....

When I wake up......I message my boy and tell him that I'm awake....and not less than 1 minute he call and tell me to ready....cause he going to come and take me to go to Sunway for ice-skating.....kinda rushing for me cause even my teeth I also haven brush.....so I quickly done all my stuff....and just in time he come.....

Took us about 30 minute to reach there and parking......when the moment we reach he quickly rush to see the ice-skating field.......I actually got a shock that all skaters are the student......not even an outsider at there....so ended up having our breakfast at K.F.C.....I wonder my boy got full a not cause it's like he eat very little....but then I think he's full cause he eat 2 breakfast set........

After finishes our food we go down to the lowest floor to buy the entrance ticket and pay the fee.....actually I kinda regret call him to take me go there cause it's like wasting money....we not really spending our sweet time at there....all I did is skating and left him behind there.....actually I waiting for him to master his skating skills but then due to his foot pain both of us get out from there early.....we like skates only for about 2 hour then we rush back to our place to eat dim sum as our lunch........

But most unforgettable thing is that an American lady teach me how to skate....she really such a nice person cause she teach a stranger how to skate properly.......thanks to her guideline my skating become better than last time.....

driving class again.......

Well I got my driving lesson today at about 11 in the morning till 1 in the noon.....so my boy decide to take me to eat dim sum as my breakfast.......he took me to a nearby restaurant which is also nearby our old school.....the food at there is really different from what other people tell him would be......he really regret taking me to such a place and have my breakfast....really not worth to have breakfast at there.......cause the food is not fresh and not really got much people come to my place and serve us..........damn.....

After I finish my driving lesson I tell him to take me a place where is not hot...cause all my driving time is driving without air conditioner....really terrible hot time while I driving.......so guess where he took me to?? Boston at Bukit Tinggi which located inside Aeon.....kinda nice food at there....I wonder why people last time told me do not go there to have my dishes......really weird...

When we walk pass F.O.S store, I stopped him and have a look inside.....really cute t-shirt they got there....then my boy tell me to pick which shirt I want to.....then at last I buy 3 new t-shirt......I still thinking want to go there with other people and buy more a not cause it's 100% cotton....really comfortable to wear it......some more most important thing is worth.......><

bye bye class....

My boy is not working from today night until next monday.....so happy that I can spend more time with him then.....I din't go to tuition today and went out with him......we go to have a nice dinner then go to cyber cafe to play some games......I never though can meet "him" again at there.....

driving lesson.....

Today so exciting....cause at last I got chance to drive a real car....no more any video game car.....but then the lesson is kinda rush....my school end at 1.10 in the noon and my biology teacher as usual eat my time....so ended up not finishing in time....some more I need to wait another girl since I ask "him" to fetch me back...but since the "girl" got muet exam and haven't finish so my "turtle" friend gonna fetch her back......he drive really fast.....even in such a jam road he can make sure I reach house around 10 minute.....luckily he fetch me...if not my "turtle" friend don't know what time only can make sure I reach house....

So pissed off today...whether is so so hot and make me really out of my temper easily....damn it.....if hot it's like really hot...if rain it's like raining for a while then stop and whole day is like cool without the sun.....I really hate my place cause is just so hot......stupid government simply chop off all the trees and cause the whether so freaking steam feeling......if got more trees I think even in such a hot whether I still can manage it...

Such a bored day at school....keep on doing revision and I can't stay away from school cause I gonna get a bad attendance if I keep on stay away from school......next week is that "girl" birthday.......everyone busy planning her birthday party...I wondering why wanna do so many surprise......cause it's not like she gonna remember it forever....present that we give her is not what she wanted......keep on buying things under my name while they din't ask me whether I agree with it a not......hate such a friend....

Most important I hate my boy to so close with his ex-girlfriend.....I know they got no high possibility together again but then there is still a chance.....I really don't even want to have a tiny chance among him and his ex since he still got contact with them and I totally no contact with my ex....I wonder if I still got contact with my ex and I so freaking close with them......will he think like what I'm thinking now??

shopping day....

Had a nice day tonight....cause ended my day with shopping.....from about 2 hours of shopping I finally get myself a short pants and a shoe......the shoe really worth to pay cause it's not expensive and most important the shoe is new arrival......but then about other bills I don't really care much cause not I pay them...is Mr.A

Actually I out with him is because I got no transport to change my stuff that I bought from "Cosway" yesterday......at first I thought is a bad decision to go out with him.....but after what he has done I suddenly got a feeling that maybe I should pay more attention on him since he is not very far from what I wanted after all....haha....>< Suddenly wish my boy also sometime will buy me some clothes or maybe some stuff that can make me really happy......

hurt me...damn u....

Din't went to school cause I lazy to go and I wanted to spend more time with him...cause I so so miss him but then don't know did he miss me as much as I miss him.........had a bad morning cause my mum pissed me off.....and due to that I spoil my spectacles....luckily can repair it back....actually the lens fall off ....if can't repair such a small thing I really gonna cry cause need to do a new spec.....

Most hurting thing for today is my boy say I'm a blind girl....really hurt me a lot.....never thought he will say I blind girl cause I din't wear spec.....I just mistakenly see wrong stuff and he say I blind....I wonder if I really get blind what will he do?? throw me aside and find a new girl?? maybe he will cause he got so so many ex....a while like this girl then chase a while like that girl then chase.......

Watch "The Sorcerer and The White Snake "....really meaningful to me cause it touches my heart...maybe to some other people this might be not a nice movie but to me....*thumbs up*.....

graduation day...2011

My graduation day held on "Gold Coast" in Klang.......the hotel is 3-star but then the food not 3-star thou.......I din't got chance to taste main dishes so I don't know how bout the taste but what I can say is their dessert is so so sweet....it's like pouring whole pack of sugar onto a single dessert.....really horrible.....their juices is like tasteless.....I really prefer drink mineral water that they supply at there but then I worry the mineral water is not clean.....so I took juices......but very weird....why there is just so many jelly?? It's not like many people take the jelly also......make me so curious bout their food preparation.....and the worse part is they only allow to eat around 11.30......and from 8 till 11.30 they don't even serve us a drop of water.....really the worse moment ever.....so thirsty but still need to talk with friends..........damn.....

The stage is not really stable......cause when walking time I can feel the emptiness of the stage just right below my feet......and they shouldn't put so many stairs on the stage....make me confuse want to use which stairs.....really confusing stage for me cause of stairs......

All of my friends look so beautiful with their own formal outfit.......but then I think I not pretty at all cause I look so unbalance......really hate this unbalance feeling........I have the "S" shape that all girls want but I'm so freaking short.....so freaking unbalance......when I look back into the mirror I feel so ugly.......

After the graduation end.....went to watch movies with friends....at first I thought "Dream house" is a ghost movie cause the poster make me feel that movie is a ghost movie....but in the end it's not a ghost movie and it's a mental movie....it's so similar with "The Ward" but then the impact is not as great as "The Ward"......most of my friends don't understand the movie cause they never watch "The Ward" before...if they watch before sure this movie is not a problem for them cause they understand the situation.......

Such a tiring day......so early wake up just to make myself a beautiful "mask"......put all those foundation and eye shadow and mascara really spoil my face......from beginning my face is not in very good condition and with now it makes my face even worse......I really got a bit regret make up......


And my driver really had an accident...side mirror accident.....cause when he reverse his car from cinema parking he din't notice his side mirror bang against the wall......lucky is not give people hit.....he hit wall better.....haha.......

SMK Shahbandaraya 2011 Graduation

Well this saturday I gonna go graduation day for the first and the last time in my life......it's weird at first that my friend can actually send me go to the hotel where my school held the graduation ceremony but then he cant send me back....at first I really thought he got work to do so he cant send me.....but later on after I know that he not really got anything important and he does that....I'm so pissed off....I was like wtf......

Actually he not only drive me go there but also include another schoolmate....and because of her I be the victim....I really hate her and him at same time....but they are my friends...so what to do?? as long still schooling I still need to see their face....but I gonna get my freedom after end of school session........and I not gonna give a damn bout them anymore.......oh ya....where am I?? He sacrifice me just because he is shy to ask her out for date......he tell me he wanted to spend more time talking with her after school time which I notice actually they don't talk much in school......and I'm wondering why don't he just call her??? then they can spend his time talking with her already what.......why must me be the sacrifice?? is so not fair....

Forget bout it then....I should forgive him since he so idiot in this stuff but genius in studies......"Hellboy" movie is not bad....I just watched this old movie and I think is quite interesting to watch.......the story line is unique and so different from the previous movies that I have watch.......If now still got his movie on show in Malaysia....I sure will go watch it.......

And the last....I regret going to school today.....cause not many people present and I'm in school doing some test from government......so bored today....if I absent from school I confirm I can watch the new movie "The Sorcerer and The white snake"....this seems to be a nice movie although I haven watch it yet.....I'm kinda interesting to watch it.....well hope next week I can watch it.....cant wait to watch it.....

bad or good??

Am I good luck or bad luck huh?? After every morning saturday class in headquarter Delta sure will rain.....like today.......when I go to tuition time around 10+ the sun still shine very brightly....but then after my tuition I come down and saw the sky got no more sun shine and left only a dark black sky......every time I tuition on saturday morning in HQ Delta sure ended up becoming turtle when going back home......I hate it....

Had a very expensive dinner.....you know why?? cause the food is not really so delicious......some of the food doesn't even have a nice taste........the worker in the shop speed is so slow.......when we request to add more soup it's like taking them century to add the soup to the clay pot.....more worse is the boss of the shop......at first she is taking order at different table but nearby our table....after she done taking order we tell her we want to pay and she then say "Ok"....but then it's like she ignore us cause she go do other stuff after she tell the kitchen what to do.......oh god.....what shop is this?? I wonder how come until now the shop haven reach bankrupt......really don't feel like want to come to this shop again........

After dinner....my aunt go to another shop to take away my favourite dish.....which is fried sotong...........more good is she order two pack of this dish.....yes!! I'm so happy.....cause at last got chance to eat fried sotong after so long time........I still remeber eating this dish in one of the restaurant in Port Klang few months ago........the dish is not bad....can be accepted but then the sauce that they give us feel so sweet.......is not spicy but sweet....what sauce is this?? where did they get the sauce from?? I don't think malaysia got sell sweet sauce.......I wonder why they din't use chili sauce from "Life"?? I think this sauce and the dish got a great combination......

haix

Feel so unhappy today......u know why?? I gonna tell you.......actually every thursday night I go to my boy shop to help him but then after today....I not gonna go his shop to help him again......why?? cause his stipendiary say she not gonna stay for night due to my presence....she din't think of I don't know a lot of things....example I don't know how to make coffee.....I just know how to take stuff.....I also don't know how to calculate the prices....how am I gonna help if I know only a bit stuff?? really regret go to his shop every thursday......thought want to help but then she like totally give me her whole job.....it's not like I help got money or what.....she is the worker for the shop....I'm just only a volunteer.......volunteer got no pay.....I wonder is it all people from her country so so ridiculous.......I really so disappointed....thought can change my mind toward her country but now is proven people from her country can never be changed......

"his" birthday....

Since today is my friend birthday and my boy working......so ended up go out with him to celebrate his birthday......went to watch a movie and had a quite bad dinner....cause the food at "Igentis Cafe" in Bukit Raja Jusco now become more worse......the drink is so sweet that makes me wonder how much sweetening have they put into the drink?? actually I should pay the bill cause it's his birthday but then he wanted to chase me so he gotta pay the bill even I wanted to pay the bill....

TGV at Bukit Raja improves a lot.....last time I remember the couple sit is just so small....now after the renovation the seat become bigger and more nicer to sit......watched "Jhonny English"....it's just so funny.....I cant stop laughing....keep on laugh from the beginning of the movie till the end.....reach house around 10+....kinda nice to go out with this friend if he act like today.....

at night shop....

At last I got chance to went to his shop during the night time for the 1st time after he open his shop during the night.....kinda different from his shop during the day......in night the shop is much more cooler and more relaxing cause not so many customer rushing in and out....but then I still pity his maid cause she work from morning around 7+ till night around 11+.....pity her only got sleep for few hours then need to get up again to go to work....I wondering why no people willing to help him during the night?? XD

I take my book to study at there but then dint really got chance to study so much cause need to help him take dishes to customer while he busy making the food.....had quite nice time there la.....not really very bad at all......just that I not get used to the atmosphere...that's all......^^

i watched it...!!

Luckily still can watch "Nasi Lemak 2.0"....I really scare that the movie get banned before I got chance to watch it.......kinda nice movie actually but then got a lot of concepts that can get people misunderstand the movie.....

Well after the movie we went to eat then have some relaxing day at some where........not bad day after all....just that I really hate school on monday cause all student usually have monday blues........me is not excluded.....><

bad chemistry trial....

I'm feeling so so guilty for not study when I got my free time during the weekends.....did so badly in exam feel like wanna jump off from high building......knock my head against the wall.....give car hit until don't even remember who am I....I really feel myself so stupid for the don't know how many time in my life....really can't forget this stuff in my life......how I wish I can become a clever person which never make such a silly mistake in life........

Well.....I gotta ready for my next class from driving school......kinda nervous cause I gonna learn to drive car soon.....1st time in my life driving car for my 1st time.....hope can get a wonderful memory through out there.......

yeppy....!! I got it...!!

At 1st I'm so worry for not getting pass in the theory part of the driving exam....now that I know I can pass so well.....I really happy....not putting lots of effort and getting 46 out of 50 question correct make me so happy......but then....I really envy my uncle....he can get all the question correct.....well....he did put a lot of effort so it's unbeatable.......

Kinda stress today cause need to study for tomorrow exam......pissed me off.......so many numbers that turn around my head......hate those numbers....really......I really don't like math even I'm chinese girl.....haih....any way to help me to love those numbers???

sad....sad.....sad.............

So tired today...cause went to swimming with my friends....so long time din't go out with them....at last got a nice chance to go out with them.....actually the place change kinda a lot....the swim site toilet is much more better than the previous ones.....but still the water pressure is still the same...just the decoration changes.....got a bit changes better than no changes at all......

I kinda regret why when small time I din't go learn swimming...if not now I sure I can swim better......really envy those kids that got their chance to learn swimming when they were still young.....if time can go back to the past I sure will force my parent to let me swim.....really nice.....but it's been century since I ever got a chance to swim....my speed slows a lot...stamina is not as good as last time....really make me down......

More worse I did badly in my exam....it's easy but then I din't have the enough time to read it.....it's all time fault.....but then actually is all my fault.....if I plan my time properly then I should get it correct...dang.....

nice monday.....

At last got a chance to meet my dear....since he started his night shop.....so little time that he can spend with me....I really miss him a lot....but then it's kinda good...cause my exam is getting nearer and nearer.....since he busy now then I also can concentrate on my own stuff.....it's like shooting two bird with a stone......

He come pick me up at school then we go to eat our lunch....as usual I skip my dinner....but pity him....he don't want to eat if I din't eat...so ended up I eat a little bit just to trick him to eat....


Overall the whole day is awesome.....kinda like it...^^

raya....wee...

Went to friend house today...cause she invite us to her house for raya celebration....we go there in a group of 8 people...and imagine that we can finish up almost all the soft drinks in her house.....it's amazing after she tell me....I really cant believe we drink so much of soft drinks....in the end she diluted the soft drink and it's taste so awful that we din't drink finish at all that jug....lol...

Plan to go to her house at 12 but then driver late come pick me up again so reach there roughly around 1....cause need to go buy a hamper for her....kinda ugly to go there with our empty hand....so we buy the hamper worth RM80 and is share among us....not really expensive either.....most funny is....we keep on ask her for "cheng pao" which mean green packet before raya but then on the spot we keep on reject the thing....very funny....I wanted to accept it but then worry they wont accept it like I do and their mouth later cant stop talk bad bout me if I accept and they wont.....kinda hard to be human actually....

Well at night had a nice time play with my boy boy....funny but then he make it like it's gonna be the last time we ever meet each other again...cause he actually gonna work on the 1st of September this year which mean next month of coarse........I really hate goodbye but don't know why sometimes I feel goodbye is good in either way......sometimes I feel I don't even really understand myself with the decision I make.....so don't ask me why either.......

Well wish him got a good night with his business in the night......I really hope he can be much more better than now....cause he really should.....

happy birthday huh?

Lol....giving birthday people an unforgettable memory is good....but then I really wondering when only my friend will stop making something which is too over....for an example.....actually this all is my friend but then I really don't know what kind of friend are them.....

Let's give them a name for better understanding....Mr.A birthday is today....then Mr.B is his good friend....Mr.C maybe also can say is his good friend too...well this Mr.B and Mr.C ask Mr.A to borrow them his keychain....which is his key chain also have the key to unlock his cycle....then this both guy change his cycle key with another similar key.....after that this Mr.A don't notice that his key get switch....around noon after we all finish our extra class...we all know that they sure do something to his cycle....but we dream also never predict that they spray a new design on his cycle without his permission....well I all can say is they never get their moral values from the previous incident....they still want to do it.....

Fine then....looks like Mr.A is kinda happy with the design....but who know that after yesterday night we celebrate his birthday after school time..........he absent to school today......this one more unpredictable.....really....our class teacher keep on chasing them and ask them bullets of question.....well...this problem is cause by them...even teacher also feel that they maybe too over this time....treat a friend like this.....cycle maybe not important to them but this maybe very important to him.....hmm......

I waiting for like 30 minute plus for this Mr.A and Mr.B to reach at the spot to celebrate his birthday at night.....but then they reach about 9 which is extremely late for like 1 hour cause we suppose to start at 8...damn it...taking me so long time....some more I that time suppose to just attend for the eating cake session only man.....they keep on tell me to stay don't go...damn it...are you guys blind?? can't I see actually I am on date with my boyfriend?? really dumb ass......study so much but can't think much.....I hate people not punctual....keep on want me to wait for them....even that day is your birthday do you really have to reach there so late?? is this a must?? if like this I rather don't want to attend all this bullshit again....wasting my time and mentally tired.....fuck u guys.....

damn u....

I hate people to force me doing this that I doesn't like to do....this fucking irritating teacher force me to go to listen to speech...actually no harm listening but then I really don't know much bout my own mother tongue language.....so there is no purpose for me to listen...further more that speech is all bout study.....wont u think is bored to listen to a 2 hour speech bout study in future and in the same time my chinese is not good?? well after the speech I really found out that my time is just wasted like that....I rather waste my time doing something I like than something that I don't give a damn at all......I really feel like want to ignore the teacher that day....not giving a damn bout what she talking but then since it's the last year I gonna study at this bored school...fine...I listen to her and waste my time at there....

 More worse is I need to sit on the floor....not enough chairs for all of the chinese student to sit...damn it.....want us to listen to the lecture but then din't provide us enough chairs.....so ended up I need to sit on the dirty floor....lucky my blue skirt is not dirty at all....if dirty I gonna hate that teacher until the end year......really hate today......hope she get a good lesson from someone......I cant wait to see how she get her lesson for saying me like that...."Even u don't know how to see u still need to go cause you're a chinese....u can be exception if u not a chinese"....I suddenly hope that I not a pure chinese too......

oh gosh.....

Without I notice today  is the and tomorrow is the ghost main gate opening......I really din't notice that the time pass so fast....just like I have blink my eye for few time and then it's here.....

Gonna have two tuition today....and both of them having the same important.....really make me so stress today.....some more at night I cant back so late cause it's dangerous.....

Really gonna be my most tiring day today.....having both the tuition on same day and time difference is like 3 hours plus.....gone to one then must rush to another side....even is 3 hour plus but include my other subject revision is totally very rushing......

off day....yes!!!

Today is off day....I so happy...can go out early and back late...XD but still my breakfast is still dim sum......I really got bit scare want to eat dim sum any more...cause it's like when I got off then it's kinda early he sure will bring me go to eat dim sum.....even he say it's like once in blue moon but I feel kinda scare still.....

Having a great time dating today......hmm.......still glad today is off cause I really need an off day from school.....

what??!!!

Okie...now only I know that this girl is actually one of his ex-girlfriend.....OMG......and then I am at there and the feeling is so so so weird man......all his friend at there and he some more with me....some more I am at his ex-girlfriend birthday party.....god damn it....he should tell me earlier that he going to his ex-girlfriend birthday party....well actually I already suspected something is so terrible wrong with them cause I got a feeling that their relationship is way too close for a normal friend.....is just a shock that she actually is his ex-girlfriend...I wonder how many ex he still got.....how many have he secretly keep it away from me?? If I and my ex-boyfriend are friends again....I absolutely won't bring him together with me...cause atmosphere will be very weird then.....

As I predict the birthday party is really bored...some more there is no people I know at there....not even one.....all are stranger to me.......so I just wasted my time at there doing nothing and eat the most terrible food I ever eat.....first is spaghetti stick to each other....then sauce is not hot or either really cold at all...some more is sour and spicy......is good to have a new kind of sauce for it but then this not really suit a spaghetti......if u wanna make a cold one then u should online check how to make them not stick to each other....really hard to take out the spaghetti to eat......is the most terrible spaghetti I ever eat.....

Most terrible is a whole crowd need to wait for a person to come....I don't even know who is that person and she make the whole floor to wait for it......so ridiculous man......my boyfriend is not feeling well and he have to wait for so long just to eat that bloody hell normal cake......o0o why cant she just cut a small piece out for us in the first place?? or either the next day she take it over to my boyfriend shop to let him eat it?? we waited like 2 hours plus just only for that normal fucking cake.....really pissed me off.....

bone pain...

Don't know why today my bone at my leg so so pain...really got no idea what I did or what I eat or what causes it to be like this today......so hard to pay attention in class....suddenly very pain....then a while later no problem.....but after some time get back this pain again...anyone know why?? is it I lack of calcium??

boy boy birthday...

Actually though want to buy him cake but then din't cause worry later no people eat the cake....some more I thought want to cinema as early bird....ended up no watch movie cause he late wake up...spending whole day at cc...bored till.....

genting agn?

So many people at genting even is normal sunday.....freaking me out......I thought only special day a lot of people but never thought normal day also so many people....imagine I plan to go to genting to celebrate my birthday which fall on school holiday and also nearby new year eve.....OMG.........room surely will fully booked and theme park surely will crowded with people....even want to play a game also have to wait like half hour most quick?

Kinda heavy mist at there.....nice weather......take few picture at there....looks kinda fat....so decided not gonna upload it.....save it in my mind as a memory....^^

First time for me to go into the indoor ghost house which is not included in the band wrist of genting indoor theme park.......really funny when think back...cause my uncle and my aunt boyfriend not scared by them so they tell them to come and scare us......my uncle tell them behind behind and my aunt boyfriend tell them okie okie.....clue for them to scare who....but luckily not me...cause I keep on hide behind my uncle....I don't like to go inside but just to accompany them to go in.....when we get to exit door.....I really panting.......almost cant continue my breathing......nice experience but then.....don't feel like wanna go inside there anymore......but most scary part is when we are going down the dark stairs and suddenly got a fake ghost jump out and scare us.....but that not include me cause I and my uncle come down from the stairs early......

Kinda wasting money cause a cup and a key chain from genting cost RM100+....really unacceptable.....play games and win as much token as you can is really hard to be not costly....but then to my cousin is kinda worth ......as a good memory from there....^^

stay back again??

Study group is good but then when you study group please think of others.....since I go to school with my friends.....it's car pooling.....so they should think of me too....they want to stay back after school to study I don't care but then don't you think is not fair to tell me that I should go back by myself and eat up my money that I pay for the car pooling?? her car is not like gonna use a lot of fuel to bring me go and back from school....since her car an old car that suppose to save lots of fuel.......she should consider me also.....if you can't study in house then send me home and you guys go to other place to study.....if I stay back together then it's really fine...but this?? really can't accept it....if continue like this I better give her less money next month onward......din't really worth also...cause sometime my dear come take me....then sometime they stay back let me go back by myself is another calculation.....ended up it's really not worth to pay so much.....regret asking her to fetch me....I should ask somebody else.....

good job...

Good good....I thought that my dear will come fetch me after my tuition but who know he tell me to follow my dad go back...it's good also I follow my dad back cause who know that his house suddenly no electricity.....luckily he din't come fetch me...if not I will be bbq in his house....but then if he come take me then he wont be so hot....cause at least got air-cond.......

Terrible thing my tuition teacher did....she say she maybe will replace a class on friday....I got tuition on friday...and I suppose to go both side now......directly 4 hours plus tuition non-stop.....oh god....really torturing me man.....I tired till damn hell now.....still so long hours of tuition......some more I got transport problem....how to go to another side of tuition on time?? it's like 5 minute trip from on corner to another end of corner.....no dinner some more.....really....speechless.....

great dinner.....

Just had a freaking awesome dinner....2 dishes of crabs....1 prawn dishes...1 sour fish dish.....1 vegetable dish....1 lemon chicken....and my side dishes is fried cuttlefish......I waited so long for the dish to come since we actually order it in between.....the dish that we reserved come so fast that we not quick enough to take the picture.......Lol.....

After dinner suddenly my aunt plan to go to i-city.....on the way to there she say we must be careful not to walk far away from her since is a normal day and less people will be at there....but then is totally opposite....so many people at there.....then she said don't go far away from her cause later we will get missing due to so crowded at there.....funny part is at 1st she tough less people will be there but who know that suddenly so many people at there....really jam at there....but just only at the enterance part.....besides that parking is so so full.....inside there so pack of people......people busy taking picture here and there cause the light view in the night really attractive......I've been there twice and found that there are many improvement at there....shops have increase a lot and there is a new building for entertainment......cant wait for them to finish it and go there once more.......

On the 24th this month there will be some sort of concert taking place at there.....surely there will be more crowded......today go already so freaking many people...cant imagine that day situation will be how......well I cant wait for next week genting..... 

bowling

Argh....bowling....it's been long time ever since I touch and play bowling.....today went to go play bowling at my dad working place....really terrible place....but then it's cheap compare to other place......the toilet is so terrible dirty and small.....really don't have any interest to go there any more in future....we play three game....which include my uncle...both of my aunt and me....lucky me din't lose in the game cause loser must treat everyone eat.....><

But then my thumb nail break off....I really don't understand cause my nail is not long but still break off......every time like that...really make me confuse.....my hand also swollen and I don't know why....really don't get.......hope wont happen such thing again cause I really like to play bowling even I can't get strike.....

i hate today!!

Really sad today...cause I though he will accompany me go to play bowling with my uncle they all at night....but I expected that he will say no to this question....know why?? cause he so freaking scare of my dad....as I thought so.....everyone scare my dad....suddenly think of finding another better mate to be my another half....even he treat me good but he is way too scare of my dad.....my dad actually wont how......I simply fool around with the fact and he believe it....it means that he not really want to be with me at all.....shirt smelly so what?? not like got people gonna purposely smell his shirt or what......we just gonna go there to play and that also so hard to achieve?? really full of disappointment today.......lunch also no mood to eat....feel like just want to cry for the whole day......for this tiny thing to him but big matter to me......

Some more at school I feel that I so stupid....what ever the teacher is telling I feel like totally stranger to me....cant even get it at all....like the first time I study like that.....failure day for me.....I thought he can accompany me go there to make me happy but then is not....all failure.....totally bad luck day for me to do what I want.....

I shouldn't let him fetch....cause a sentence he say make me feel sad.....I ask him "What are we gonna do today?"...he ans me "Well what we gonna do is in your hand.....u will plan for me".....but later I found out that what he say is not what he mean....cause after I ask him whether want to come with me to bowling a not....he say that he wanted to watch movie with me today....so what is the purpose of him saying that to me?? is there any meaning of saying something that wont come true?? really hurting me.....don't feel wanted to life anymore.....wondering why I just cant get the courage to hit by a car.......=(

cant wait for tomorrow....

My uncle gonna come visit us in Malaysia tomorrow........cant wait for it....he come back since last 2 years ago already...I miss him freaking so much......gonna spend more time with him....^^

i not gonna go damn u...!!

To prevent going to a childish place I prefer staying at house and had some nap....my friends are gonna celebrate a guy birthday in botanic cafe in the midnight on next Sunday.....nahh.....is so ridiculous.....why should I go when in the end no body gonna celebrate my birthday as i celebrate for them?? I hate to waste my money on something that cant let me gain anything after that.....some more next day is school day....if I go maybe I can take that as excuse but then I still thinking wanted to go a not cause they not like gonna spend a bit on this things....they don't know how to manage their money and simply buy things that they think is cheap but actually is not........really don't know why they study public school since they so rich can simply but stuff......=(