Now all is left for me is just to cry....even cry can't help anything but at least my heart will feel better....now no one understand me....the people that I thought can be a part of my world is gone...leaving me hanging alone.....feel like I am a zombie.....no more feeling is the best......cry so much for what? stupid me.....cry le can make everything better? no right? it just make things worse.......hurting for me to reject but he want a desktop....so I must support him.....by not going out with him.....but who will appreciate me? nobody....maybe I get used to nobody appreciate what I have done......what I done is just a bad stuff.....no people really understand me......hate it......
Why I don't have the courage to do it?? why I just don't run away or take a knife killed myself?? what is the purpose for me to do all this thing when nobody appreciate me in the way I do my thing? all just know how to blame me if wrong.....if correct just remain silent.......so I just like not existing in this realistic world....even I try not to cry my heart hurts.....who can understand my feeling? nobody.....all is just selfish.....other people thing is always my thing.....really regret coming this world......why couldn't I just miscarriage when my mum fall?? maybe that decision will make a better me than a now me......always not perfect......not good........hurting people feeling girl........actually I don't see my future in my brain....all I see just a black future....cause I betray my dream since long time ago cause of a lot people.....now left nothing in my head but a word....REGRET....
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