so wat?

Haha......you love me so what? you haven got me & you already showing me so much of request.......talking to me like you fully understand me....shut up.....you don't even know the real me yet.....as long I still young there is always some difference in me.....if you think I wont change then you must have a wrong idea of me.......more worse is you not even friends with me yet.....how can you immediately tell me to jump to lover part if friends also haven be?? weird people.......


Yesterday having a great time with my da da......but then I really cant take today morning........I get some new news that my friends "engagement" they gonna pay for all.....but then I don't to owe him anything.....I fucking don't like him cause he that time so action with me......some more I don't think both of them gonna last long....so I go just no meaning.....more cant take is present must be present to them due to their engagement......damn you la.....is just a fake engagement why want to do so much of thing?? if real never mind but this is just too not logic......I cant accept it......fine........absolute not going......hope they all regret of going to that place........should be say hope not many people going to there due to not interested to their fake engagement?? haha......trying to be bad people here.........

tuition tuition & tuition........like never end~

Well my this week & next week fully book time of tuition....dont even have time to get some rest......suddenly so many thing to learn & memorize......could this be any more worse than 2 week non-stop with books??? early morning till night I need to go to tuition......argh....cant stand it anymore......at tuition is more bored when I cant get connected with what the teacher is talking in front.......darn.......


After my class today I saw my ex-bf at delta doorstep leh......shock of my life.....at 1st I thought I saw the wrong people but then I notice is not mistake....is really him.....& I really want to take my courage that time ask how's he been doing recently....but then I made up my mind for not doing so...cause I think his gf beside him.....is rather weird suddenly ex-gf come & talk with you while your gf is still beside u.....but that is my point of view.....happy for him if he really got new gf....hope he can have a happy ending with her.....just a wishes.....no any other meaning.....


Well next week gonna start my brain to absorb everything like sponges again......TT cant imagine how those genius study......

childish~

I really now having a thinking that my friends are not mature yet.....some times they will give some very brilliant mature idea but some times the idea is too over childish...well I have to say bout this is actually a very sensitive thing so I don't dare to say much but do you really think engagement really can tie your partner from finding another girl.....or something like dog in a cage stuff?? I want to share bout something that I face that is my friend which is same age as me is gonna engage with her guy which is also same age just to let her guy enter our class private group.......I really cant imagine it....why must she so desperate to let her guy enter out group?? is not like her guy got come & join us outing or something like that....even got they later still will spoil our outing atmosphere cause they are couple.......& most irritating is I must go.....sorry to say but FUCK U!!


Both of you engagement is not real at all & not like I gonna to waste my money just to see that few sec thg.....you stupid or what?? why must you do it at a closed room with friends looking at your engagement?? why cant you do in public places or less walker places?? is not like very private thing also.....if you really want to do this kind of stuff do it for real......if you do it for fun what's the point? is just waste of time & money.....now is end of year & many people is having a big difficulty in money.....cant you think of something that is convenience?? even study is genius but I don't think that they are having a mature mind.....is just like child......hate it when I not in childish mindset......some more that day is my day......why cant they just pick other day of so many day?? argh~~!!


At last I would just like to say if both of you ever come across this please don't mention in front of me......cause this I just want to express out my feeling.....I really so can't take both of you......if you want your guy to enter this family please la......concern bout other people too.....our group is not for you to having a stupid fucking sweet chit chat.....cause I not even give a damn bout what both of you will be talking......some more he is totally another class la girl....are you blind?? we want the group is from our class only........but even the organizer want him to be in group I also got no choice but definately ignore his existance in the group.....hate to say it but I don't think is a good choice of putting him in our group cause he from another class & I definately don't want to see their sweet talk in the group.........

xdo~

Can you imagine that I have been playing xdo for many hours & it seem to be not enough at all.....I think I really addicted to this game already.....but then yesterday went out with my dear is kinda nice lor.....just that he need to wait kinda long at my house cause I need to do a lot of housework & trying to kill cockroaches.....kinda lucky because get caught a pair of cockroaches....some more I just need 1 suddenly out so many cockroaches....kinda scary because I scare of cockroaches......damn it......need to do such scary thing for next year mark.....I really need to take my courage out to do this thing.....


Yesterday got tuition but then I din't go because is kinda far some more I cant wake up so damn early in the morning.....this wed some more got so many thing to do....morning around 7+am my school project then 10.30-1300 is my tuition time.....then late evening my tuition again at 6.45 pm to 9pm......really pack my time on wed....argh....!! I don't know how can I take so long of tuition hours without getting dreaming in tuition......haha......well I gonna catch my butterfly & dragonfly since I get my chance to touch the net & I finally get back my book from my friend......now I really can use my holiday time to power up but I kinda worry if I got time for this power up a not cause I scare I will keep on out.......but nevermind.....what we need is quality not quantity~~hehe~~

genting with relatives....~

Well I went to genting on saturday nite & back on sunday evening.....reach house at night thou......however I really cant believe myself finish playing outdoor games at genting in just few hours time.....maybe because of no people at that time..........If not mistaken is around 12+pm only got a lot of people.....I & my cousin sister start playing around 9.......so glad that temperature is kinda low & I loving it......


Really cant fall sleep at the 1st night at hotel........therefore I go back to my room around 2+am in the morning......spend my time at genting cc is really kinda pain in the wallet but I think is worth because able to play my game nicely at there.........had my breakfast at Restaurant Hainan is really kinda nice.....but I just put too much of sugar in my tea & too much sauce at my egg.....making my breakfast too over sweet & salty....really scary if think back.....bread is kinda nice but if the bread is more soft then it will be more nice......hehe......


Need to catch some sleep now cause din sleep for 1 night.......happy for going to genting with my relative.....but then I kinda wanna laugh them when they waiting for a bus just for a short journey......is near but they seem to wait for half hour just for a bus when we can reach there just in 10 minutes......

journey to 1u & after that......

Sometimes I feel myself very useless....cause many place haven been before....especially KL place....yesterday telling my friend that I haven been to 1 Utama before he like shock in his entire life...cause he thought I lie to him saying that I never been before....well really I haven been before.....cause my parent don't know the way so they cant take me go there......& my parent already very old.....I can't afford them to take me such a far places with their bad health.......so I need to go myself but I don't always have such many money to go to such places because even daily expenses also very high at there......some times I rather stay in my place & shop at there.....


However this is a very nice place to go cause there got plenty of option of choosing.....even dresses you can get confuse which one to see cause there is just too many shop over there........I just go there to watch movie only....my friend keep on saying that young people at there like to dress mature.....& I dress look so big differences between them....well.......I just simply wear on.....how can you aspect me to look so mature when I simply wear on some cloths?? watched "Megamind" kinda nice......not a bad movie at all......


Most interesting is I meet a handsome guy which is his friend but then he is smoking so totally out of my cup of tea......haha.......& I cant imagine that I been playing bowling with my skirt.....hard to imagine......but I still can get strike for the 1st time in my life.....happy thou.....waited for so long & just play for few minutes and all is gone......back to house.....but before going back had my dinner at "Taipei Walker"....prices is affordable......food & drink is really worth cause is not like my area with so little amount & high prices.......nice memory to save.....gonna save my memory.........~

party duh...~

The party is not like what I thought it will be......cause as I can see there is too over little tables & chairs.......small section of alcoholic drinks........DJ keep on repeating the same song........when the earlier batch of people reach to spot there is no food & drink that have been prepare readily....still need to wait some more........dancing stage is so out of my thinking that it really doesn't look like a dancing stage........in time between is kinda ok....but after they all start to high all don wan go dance even they keep on shaking badly mad........most I cant take it is people wanted to go back the organizer keep on do something else.....is such a no respect to guests.......& the sound system is purely bad I telling ya.....my friends house sound system is so much better than that.......freaking lucky that none of my friends going with me.....if not I sure got no face to face them for bring them to such a "wonderful" party........duh......not going to attend such open party anymore.....

outing at sunway~

Yesterday is such a wonderful day for me.......cause able to go sunway hanging out with my friends again.....but then too early wake up to go to sunway ended up having difficult time to find nice food to eat.....however still ended eat outside of sunway lor......skating for more than 5 hours really taking my leg away.......I really can feel my leg paining after playing for so long time with my skate shoe tie so tightly on my leg.....really at a moment my leg is totally numb....even you cut my leg most probably I dont even notice at all......>"<

Eating dinner also is a rough thing to do.....after walking to some where very far ended up going to some where very far too.....at 1st we go to a cafe that really too over expensive......then change decision to some where very far too.....ended up having a nice dinner but the table seem to be so small for me cause a lot of people siting on the same table......13 people siting on same table....can you imagine how small will my place be???

Later when going back time we spend 1 hour at bowling......I play bowling for the 1st time in my life......my accuracy kinda suck......cant even strike a match.......such a pity thing.....unlike my friend that play bowling in their life they having a good performance at there........I am having a stupid act on the lane......darn......and most I cant forget is another transport having roughly around 8 people on the van is having a bad luck day....when they go to find us at outside shop of sunway they went wrong place & have to give toll money twice.....then when back time they lost their parking ticket ended up very late only go back to their house.....& have to give RM20 as fine for losing their ticket....kinda pity them......

But still is a nice day......cause having able to go back on time & come to fetch me on time........having such a expensive trip is really worth.......I loving it.....^^

argh.....!!

In the breaking of dawn.....where my most sweet moment of sleeping suddenly my leg so so so itchy.....my sick is coming back again......I put some aloe is still no use cause it still get itchy......then really can't take it I wake up so damm early that now my eyes is so dry even want to blink also difficult.....after put some white wine on my leg it become better.......& luckily my leg now is better than last time......even is red but can't see any spot but it's almost like uneven colour on my skin.......

I need to go out later & I can't wear short pants later.......I will be like so hot later & sweat a lot cause is not really a cold whether for me to wearing long jeans........some more later at night I still got tuition.....impossible for me to wear long jeans to tuition cause it's a very hot place for me......hope my leg can stop becoming itchy soon......really can't take the itchy......argh.....~~~

outing wit friends.....

At 1st is kinda clumsy cause we get mix up about the time we should be going to friends open house due to deepavali......some more suddenly the guy that say got this class that class will be late suddenly changes time make me get confuse bout what time should be ready.......but then I still get ready at the same time even I sweat like hell after ready for it........unfortunately the driver fault that I have to wait so so long time which is almost like more than half an hour.......wait till hair also grow white already..........


The food at friend open house nice......especially the mutton curry......cause I got a bad image bout mutton...cause last time I get invited by different indian friend & her mutton curry so hard to eat.......cause the flesh stick so well to the bone that is almost like no flesh is coming out for me to chew you know........then after eating,talking & taking full picture we then go to another 2 friends house.........around 12 reach my favourite cafe lor........I thought that he will be joining us to drink but who know his friend don't want to join.........haiz.......so no choice gonna drink up my alcoholic drinks........


Can't imagine my friend face is so red almost like a big red balloon......& he keep on claimed himself that he haven't drunk & still can drink some more......I think he is really drunk already....cause he drink so fast.....sure will ended up like that one......well hope he still can awake for his morning class thou.......^^

it hurt's~

I thought yesterday go ice-skating today morning wont happen anything but it well get well.....but who know today only all the effect shows........my left hand cant use any energy cause I think my hand get twisted.....some part of my right hand swollen.....but I really don't know what I hit yesterday..........kinda funny when think back bout yesterday........I wanna fall but din't fall.......showing some weird action to thousand of eyes watching me.....kinda embarrassed me at that time.......


My butt so pain today.......cause muscle cramp.......when walking time can feel the stretching of my muscle butt......then yesterday when the moment I take off my skating shoes my feet is totally no more feeling.......which means that I tie too over tight already......but if din't tie so tight later when you skate you sure will fall down cause the blade not straight.........really is enjoyable moment that I wont never forget.....I wish to have another gathering like this again......can't wait for it to happen.....

wee~

Had a great time at sunway today....even go wrong road but still we still made it in time....eat sushi buffet that kinda expensive but not really very nice the food......service kinda bad.....then go to ice skating........fall down twice......it hurt's at my butt.......really hurt.......then most funny is my friend that molested me get to fall down on the next few second.....hard to believe it......but my pants is so wet cause fall down on the wet ice.......


My bio pass d leh.....so damm happy jor.....cause when holiday don't need to do any homework that she will giving to those that fail.....but I fail math T & chemistry......that rili make me sad.....but never mind......I will do my best in the coming exam.......

argh

Rili cnt go ma today?
Y cnt go?? 
Y cnt give me a good reason for cnt go??
Y oways cnt go out wit him??
Wat u don like bout him??
Wat u bo song??
I regret telling u bout our thg......cz I tell u is don wan u keep ask me stupid question but hu knw u selfish...
U don let me out cz u selfish.....u worry u no chance to see me like I gonna death soon......
I hate u for being selfish........I hate u deeply in my heart.......
B4 tat I wit my ex u aso like tis......now u aso like tis........
Everytime u aso like tis.............I hate u for k me now.......
I wish u jz don k me let me live according to my wish..........
U don even und a fucking thg I wan.....so wat d purpose u born me out????
All u wan from me is being ur "robot"....so y u wan give me a soul??? Y????!!!!