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Hey ya pals....I am back.....many people say I make up and dint make up is totally different....well I got no idea....but I got a feeling that my make up look bit scary...feel like goth o emo type of make up like that....some say is dinner type....well I dont care....but at last get to hear someone say I look scary....wee~~


That day I 1st time make up in my life is on 25 of april...around 3 in noon....wow....~my mum say I look cool if dindnt smile...well I dont really like to smile......kinda like that kind of make up....but is damm pain man.....I dont know that people is pro or not but I know that she make up for me tears also can drop.....pain like hell....cant even open my eyes big big.....take picture like I in the middle of sleeping~~but still the picture looks ok.....luckily is not ugly......~

wee~~

Yo yo man.....yesterday night I plan want to go drink with my friend but then someone call so I dint go with him....sorry o....I thought your steamboat will take whole night that why decide to follow.....I thought they will take me go pub or somewhere can easily get a high percentage of alcohol drink but who know they go to normal restaurant to drink.....that casberg only contain 5% of alcohol....damm it....no big effect on me also...


But is lucky no big effect cause I think I still allergic to those stuff....I still need some time to fully recover from it....damm......so wanted to go clubbing man......most of my friend went but I haven....feeling like weirdo.....my eye yesterday quite zhong....cham dao....my mum also know I it....damm.....I thought using some old trick can trick her......T3T


Morning time I went to KL.....damm happy man...even at train is damm bored.....plan want to go to Sg.Wang but then I lazy want to walk so decide to stay at Times Square.....kinda nice to go there cause many thing to see....but not really cheap....compare to my house area and there is a big different...~~But then I feel very bad....I lied my mum going to sunway piramid with friends.....haix....feeling bad bout it now...should I tell her the thruth or should I dont??very confusing...~~

bAd mo0d...~

Hey blogger.....I keep getting request from people to asking me update my blog....so now here it comes......better they read it.....if not I going to kill them off with their heads.......in morning I feeling not well.....then my mood from yesterday night is very very bad......lucky got friend come my house chat with me.....lucky also got my adopted brother call me and chat with me.....


Morning morning I get piss off by my stupid idiot computer....they keep suggest me format...WTH....you come format for me or either you sponsor me to format my old computer la....say till so easy to do....then if you emo please la.....not me making any fault....just let me go cant you???emo still find me then talking with me like I kill your family members....f....


Yesterday night when I doing my yoga my left hand joint pain again...this is dont know how many time pain in the early of the year.....hate myself for playing at playground when small....dumb me....now suffering from own action.....I plan want to see doctor to cure but then is not very serious....not wanting to waste useless money.....then yesterday morning I go eat my breakfast stomach pain like hell.....no matter how many I eat is still pain....evening at least better.....not so much pain......but still pain.....


I really cant stand on people that keep asking me private question...saying is want to understand me....f u.....fake till that level.....say want to chase me....f u.....you never show me your sincere to do it......keep on telling me things that I have listen thousand of times and tell me to trust them....f u.....I dont want to ended up hurt.....I rather you hurt than me hurt.......cause I am known as cruel girl since many people keep saying I cruel but actually I am not.....dont understand me but keep on giving opinion bout something they don even understand is like cooking without a correct ingredient.....they are play girl so they dont have the right to say me.....say themself 1st....look in mirror before you start to say other people......dont so thick face.....


And now I am going to play game to cool down my exploding temper......so see you guys next time...^^

hOw??

Hey pals.....how bout this new edited picture that I capture yesterday night??haha.....that time I kinda emo so I just capture it as a memory....to look how emo am I when I really dont have the mood....all because of dota....making the whole group lose in the game.....is my fault make them lose....I shouldn't touch dota anymore.....I give up....I cant do it well....need to trouble people to control my hero and his one at the same time....


I maybe should just tell him but then I cant say it out....cause I dont have any courage to say anything out anymore.....I very tired mentally...cant produce anymore strength to say anything anymore....I give up....giving up easily is not me but then I got no choice but to choose this road....my dota suck...thought my account at tales of pirate is still there...but who know is gone....my lvl 75 cleric is gone....wasting my time level it so high....shit.....~~

bLam3 m3

Hey friends....nice to see you all again....feeling damm not happy....why always what I try to tell people and hope they understand but they keep on think it in they different way and answer me in the wrong answer??Is it what my message so hard to understand by them??why all always misunderstand me???I try my best to tell you so that you can understand me but then in the end all is worthless....fuck....ask them understand a not they say yes....now telling me that is the answer I want....damm you!!!


All keep on blame me.....diu na seng....~ccb~~~why all put the blame on me???like I want it to happen.....I try my best to prevent it from happening but then keep on happen......can stop keep on blame me????can dont all say is my fault???cant you just stop disturbing my privacy??say wont go use my facebook account but what the hack....keep on use my account....WTF!!say different do different...say love me but is all lie...


I had enough of people that dont understand me keep on advice me...talking like they understand what I face....actually they got no right to advice since they dont understand what I face....they dont even know why I did it in the 1st place....all just know giving wrong opinion on me.....I dont like people does that on me....when I try to make things become better and they didnt cooperate.....feeling not worth to make it better...but then I dont used to leave it in such a bad condition....thought I got the strength to make it better but who know it becoming more worse than I thought....make me feeling that I totally is useless...a small matter also cant solve it....hate myself....


Now my mouth pain....cant talk so much but keep on callling me.....eat also pain so dont talk bout talking in handphone....even swallow saliva also pain....why my teeth want grow at this moment???hate it.....feeling wanna sick.....feeling like feverish....damm it......~

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Dear blogger....nice to meet you all again....well this time I am going to share my unhappy thing again~well....there is a guy keep on ask me to accept some request that I haven ready for it.....he just wont understand it.....I also cant understand it...how can a people love me without knowing the real me???wth...~say love me everything....if is really love me then dont rush me to accept something that I not yet ready for it....is that what you call love???love should be making another happy but now is not...~you will happy but not me...~


I dont like people rush me to make decision...when I say later mean when I found my answer I will answer you....but you didnt even wait for my answer....all you want is me following your answer...if like that I 200% wont accept that request.....you say will let me decide but now keep on tell me to accept....is that what as you call decide???IS IT???!!

There is one post that my friend write I like the most..."You Guys Just Do Whatever You Like And Do Things That Girls Hate Without Considering their Feelings..."well...I like this post the most....this one I found it very interesting because till now that is what I saw and I get from guys....if someone would come out and say love me after really understand the real me I would be happy to be their girl....they say is not exactly as what they promises....it's nothing but a lie~~~~~just to get on your side they will give you whole world....when they at your side the world is gone.....

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Howdy people....I heard my friend say that my school is going to start next month...well I going to be less online and update blog once a week....so in a month you only can read my blog 4 time....but if I got time I will try to update my blog ya...so remember me ya....dont forget me....^^


Yesterday night went out with friend to karaoke......wa....they all more like shout then sing lor....ear pain not their singing but their voice leh.....hehe.....I plan want to sing but then is ok.....I next time go with my family only start my singing....now that I know the prices I think want to try sing alone....wonder how will it be????hmmm....~cant say no feel bored cause they all sing all those old people song....kinda sleepy when hearing it.....~


Nearly cant find the way out went want to go back time.....cause never been so late back before....and is not underground parking....haha.....luckily my dad dint scold my mum......if not I feel guilty when go out.....problem is I trouble my friend(mountain chicken)....I thought he stay at sentosa that why go....never thought is totally trouble him....next time I better dont go out better....keep trouble people to come take me out.....so sad...~


This morning wake up thought I fall sick...feeling so damm weird....just like falling sick...but luckily not...cause I never fall sick for nearly 2 year....I know is hard to believe but is true.....I really haven sick for this 2 year....suddenly missing the moment I fall sick....heard my friend say that fall sick can make you become thinner....wow....I wanted to become thinner...cause recently fat a lot.....especially yesterday after 8 eat so many stuff....~

iF thEre Is onCe surE goT 2nd~

Hey ya....do you think it will happen sometimes in your life once a while??once you did it once sure got 2nd...~but actually is not once in a while is always if you notice it....when you eat any delicious food you sure will go back it for the 2nd time...listen to song also will repeat listen to the song if that is your favourite song....when you sing your favourite song you sure will sing it for multiples times without feeling it boring...but the listener will.....haha...~


If fall in love you sure will fall in love again eventhought you know that it will hurt you again.....sometimes we did it more than twice in life....maybe can say life is just like repeating.....keep on repeat the same thing that we like.....even kisses dont tell me that you wont kiss your boyfriend for the 2nd time???hurt will also more than once....cause that people doesn't really understand what type of thinking you have....and eventually will hurt you not in the obvious way....but I just can say I yesterday play "dota" and I hope there is 2nd time of me winning and not losing.....fall in love with "dota" again and wish to go cybercafe again....but near my house cybercafe sucks....


Want to download "dota" on my pc but then worry it will get infected by virus again...cause my pc is kinda old....cant afford to keep infected by virus....but other than dota I think I also get addicted to the "left 4 dead"...kinda nice game but hard for me to control at 1st....so sad....me just to noob to play new game......T^T but still manage to survive...even death once....and continue by twice....~haha.....~ Just like making parent happy....if you done it once sure got twice or either everyday....everytime.....every minute perhaps???so now I prefer dont make them too happy so that they will know that I not a clown o their servant that they can do what they want and how they want on me...~I not a robot that they can control....human got their feelings and when their daughter is getting older they got their own world....~haha~


So I must make sure that I wont let my parent control me for the 2nd time....if not I really can become an excellent robot cause now is also one....such a pity.....~

tRu3~

Hey blogger....got to admit that fall for someone is easy but to forget the people that we love deeply is the most hard one....~taking up is easy but putting down is hard....just like done a expensive shopping and we not dare to throw all the money,time and feel we waste to search for that thing....if you really love a people deeply I think need a moment only can forget that people fully....to me now this moment I admit that I haven fully forget him.....I am just sad that I treat him so badly.....I am just not such a good girl.....I feel very sorry for wasting his time......I dont know why but I listen to this song at this moment keep drop tear...is it I cant forget him or I dont want to become his history??I really dont know what I should do.....so confuse......so difficult to put down....so...so........~


this song make me drop tear this moment~

wOw~

Hey hey ya...~long time no see.....haha.....I been more happier recently cause someone keep telling me funny stuff.....haha.....well....I think I next monday if can go out I maybe will watch "under mountain"...yesterday went out watch "clash of titans"....that movie is okie but kinda look like game.....I wonder they take it from game???then me wed morning went out watch "daybreaker"....that movie kinda make me sick cause all the blood is just too not real.....either look like water colour or look like chili sauce.....haha.......


Recently like keep going out to watch movie but I want to go out play play....wanted to go cameron highland before form 6 school session start...but then I worry is kinda rush and no people can accompany me go....my mum said go there just need 2 day one night.....but I worry I cant walk finish.....I like to enjoy see all those plant....make you feel relax....dont need to think bout city stuff....can release tension.....such a nice place.....but I dont know whether is really such a nice place a not.....kinda worry is not nice......later is not worth to go there....


My dad plan want to go to genting....haha.....I dont believe he can do it thou.....cause he always talk more than action.....he that time say if my UPSR get A he will buy me a cycle....until now I didnt see any cycle also....so sad.....T^T But then my bro get that cycle not me.....haha......~


Well till next time ya...~cause I getting out of idea want to write what since I got no joke to share....sorry thou~

n0 wAy~

Hello people.....I am back.....feeling not happy.....down.....sad......1st of all is cause my ex....never thought he will delete me from his friend list....small gas people.....I thought he wont but who know he is.....2nd....early in the morning mummy talking damm loud to brother.....so damm noisy....then wat the hack my dad on his idiot music make it more noisy....suddenly my neighbour dog barking like no body business.....is like shit......feel wanted to kill them off......I hate my neighbour dog cause keep barking like a crazy dog......


Then today when I most busy time want to prepare myself go out watch movie with friend my handphone keep ringing like no body business....that one why cant they solve it when I bit more free???wtf....eat also rushing in time....I just keep swallow my food and not biting it...damm it....~feel like drink more than eat....is some more chicken rice...deng~


My handphone always ring at the wrong time....if I didnt brush my teeth.....wash cloth....in toilet doing business or bathing it wont ring...always like tat.....then they didnt even ask me reason say why didnt ans call...is it dont want to be friend with them...or something that very irritating........hate it.....!!!Why cant they just call me when I really boring that moment????all always like that....calling the wrong moment then all blame me.....I born to give you blame izzit????!!


I dont like my mum to talk loudly with me when I just beside her......make me feel that she think I am a deaf...well I not!!!stop talking so loud with me....is not the 1st time I tell her bout it....I tell her many times but she seem to cant listen to me.....I dont like the way she talk to me when I in the hell mood...she think I am him(my bro)...he only will listen to her when she shouted at him...but I not him....how can you treat me the same way???its not fair....totally not fair...!!!~