suffering~~~~

Argh.........why I just cant forget about him??why do I keep thinking bout him???why he recently keep pop out from my mind??why does always when I see this girl online I keep think bout him???why???I that day feel very happy when he suddenly reply my message.....just dont have the reason but I still feel happy.....is it I still cant let him go???that girl got ask me whether want her to leave him alone a not....I should answer yes...but then it would look like evil...cause I know you got no meaning together with someone that dont love you anymore...just like getting the shell and not the soul.....


My mum today went nuts....she keep on talk rubbish stuff to me....my mood is not so good to hear her talk such stuff....but she still keep keep on talk.....keep on play online game....make me cant chat with my friend either in facebook or msn(window live messenger)......haix....~rarely got people find me chat but then she just make it a big failure....


My aunt is another one....saw what I post at facebook go tell my mum...she keep on hit thing loudly....like the hell I dont know she mad at me....but I really mad at her....I do what she also want to know....even I sometime go my friend page see thing she also wan to see...when I scroll down the page fast she say "Girl,did you hide something from me?"...I so wanted to say yes....tell her that I need more privacy...but she just wont understand the privacy that I meant....is such failure.....~


I just hope when my mood is bad there would be someone to chat to...but none of them come out.....all say wan chase me....love me....fake....!when I no mood find them they keep say chat later...busy la.....handphone no battery la...this la...that la....wtf.....~


Feeling soul is die-ing inside....getting a cant cure disease.....wondering who can cure it for me.....wanted him to cure but he just tooooo busy with his work....he even say that he wont touch facebook...but I notice is just a lie again....he did touch it today.....HE REALLY DID...~I saw him comment someone post that on his page....and it happen a while ago....OMG....~