birthday day......

Well today is my birthday.....before saying bout today yesterday kinda down....I really don't know why suddenly will feel so so sad.....cried kinda a while....but then too tired I went to sleep.......today wake up kinda late....around 1 in the noon.....I break my own record during the holiday....cause in holiday I never wake up so late....today is the 1st time I wake up so late.....then after that I went to eat my 4 meal......yesterday dinner....supper.....breakfast & lunch.......ate kinda a lot......very full now.....thinking tonight want to go where celebrate.......


Yesterday kinda nice swimming in the night.....feel so cool & cold.....I like the feeling....then I ask Mr.X  to bring his "beloved" friend to come to meet that girl he wanted to meet so much.....well conclusion he say she is pretty & cute.....that why I said to him earlier.....he don't believe me.....but then when I think of it I feel kinda funny.....his friend say he want to stop chasing girl but then I believe is just a stupid talk from him.......actually kinda guilty cause make them go there for nothing....they went they just sit & don't want to join us talking.....hmm.....well gonna enjoy my day.....bye~

why like this?

I really couldn't understand.....why people always get an event stuck on so many same day?? like example my birthday....so many people asking me free a not on that day......I sure free but is at morning & noon.....impossible at night cause I want to out with my boy boy.......some more the day after my birthday....is totally 3 event stuck together on same day.....some more on same time.......is at night time.....I really got to choose between singing....buffet dinner......count down at Sunway with my friends......which should I go?? I have been wondering for myself kinda long time enough.....why always like this?? so many event stuck on same day same time........really making me to split up to many many parts......I really wish can go all event....but then all same time how can I possible go??

I really want to go to all of those 3 event.....but then can only choose one.....which one should I  go?? singing with my family o going outing with school friends or going to dinner with my boy boy.......

Either one is also hard to choose.....I'm a greedy person so could I just go all of those event??

Not yet done anything~~

Oh my God......during this holiday I haven done finish my homework yet.....all stuck in the middle then I just left it.....totally din't touch after that......now I really need to get myself to touch back my homework already........now I think back the homework that need to pass  up kinda lot........some more I gave myself homework also haven done.......really need to get myself back up & start working like busy bee already.....can't waste my time anymore.........cause I think since my school will be opening next week kinda busy for me at night to do revision cause usually got appointment.......XD

I plan to buy my Chinese New Year stuff but haven go buy it yet.......next month surely my wallet will be paining like no other people business......so sad when think of my wallet paining......

eat grass~

Well morning morning wake up...thought that my boy boy would come and pick me on time but then who know that he will late wake up today....1st time he late till so many minute......such a lucky thing that I call him....if not I can't imagine what time I will reach there to do quadrant sampling & line transect.......actually at there I more busy to play with wet wings butterflies than counting species of grass I should be counting......^^


Those butterflies really look different when I look from near......kinda nice & pretty thing to see.....really don't hope to let them free....anyway I still let them go......^^ so I went to cybercafe for around 3 hours....play sdo for kinda long time......having a good time.....ate a snow ice-cream that is chocolate flavor......kinda nice.....not bad.....then had some walking around shopping complex in the nite.....I really break my own record for the whole year since I today really early reach house.......my boy boy finding a suitable nice jeans....hope he can find it....^^ 


I wonder if there is any place sell cheap clothes with good quality & can wear on any season.......is it really so hard to find such clothes I wonder.......but I still will try my best to find.......wish me to found it......^^

Christmas.......HOHOHO....

Hohoho.....Merry Christmas to everyone.....kinda like today......cause I gonna go out to take some fresh air for whole day....so loving it....but then this morning when I wake up I found that the whole world is spinning around my head....I go no reason why such thing happen.......my mum say maybe I got low blood pressure or too least blood in my stream.....but then how can that be possible?? if really is like that I should be earlier gone through such things already........

Well had a good time talking with new friends at Old Town Coffee Shop......kinda nice place I took......cause is under fan and air-conditioner......so nice......don't feel like want to leave the place......really love such situation......but then kinda too over crispy the bread.....all those tiny powder of bread is falling on to my body......make me don't feel like want to call peanut butter again.....=)

Well have you ever meet such a person?? it's start like tis....

Mr.X: I want you to be my girl and I don't mind you at one moment together with 2 guy

I : *shock

Mr.X: Is really.....I like you since the day I out with you.....I am very sure you are the type of girl I want....could you give me a chance to be your guy?? 

I : Erm.......*speechless

Mr:X: Waiter pay bill

Then I really shock....I can't believe what I did to him....I really got no idea what is so interesting bout me making him will talk such a thing.....really couldn't make it right.....feeling head want to explode to think an answer to this question.........

I also never thought that during Christmas day so many people ask me out.......one of them is my kai kor....another is someone that long time ago chase me but then I rejected due to some reason.......another is my boy boy.....but I know he sure ask me out at night cause he been working like a busy bee from morning onward......I have been wondering why my life always like this? when no people ask me there is totally not a single person....but one starts to ask sure a lot people follow next......making me look like a bad girl for some of them since I can't out with some of them.....sorry......

Well....I just only got one wish Santa......I don't hope to be genius or selfish but then could I get a wish come true that is make my life more easier?? I don't want to hurt anyone anymore......I know how it feels when I rejected someone invitation......I don't hope to let anyone that I know feel such thing.....

poor me......

I wasted my whole month pocket money just to buy new shirt yesterday.....kinda expensive actually.....maybe should be said over expensive......cause just a normal shirt like that I think it only worth around RM50+ perhaps......well din't buy also buy already...can't complaint much......lucky that shirt doesn't have any problem cause I forgotten to check it.....now kinda worry later on got problem a not.....cause I should ask for a brand new one.......hope no problem for me.....


Well this month I only can plan to go out one more time only.....since my pocket money is at my limit already.....some more I don't want to go to expensive place buy already....they charge too much.....plan to wait my friend to be free then ask him to take me go to the place that he said cheap & worth.......wondering when will he be free?? cause my school start another one more week.....after my school start I don't know how often can I go out....some more go out would be at night most probably....cause I think he will be working on the morning.....kinda worry....hate end year.....

omg~

So good at last got some one ask me out for a date.....but unfortunately I kinda late go back house making my boy boy so worry bout me yesterday....sorry ya.....^^ some more both of my phone in silent mode....how can I possible to hear any sound?? most scary thing is both of my phone battery is hot like cooking an egg situation.....the battery so hot in a moment I think my phone will be spoil.......but luckily din't spoil....just the battery low afterward.......that guy I went out with yesterday really look like one of my old classmate....really can't believe that I will meet some one so alike like him.....haha.....


So unlucky yesterday too.....I give a puppy bite again......I feed them they bite me......being a good people is a pity thing cause always there will be a bad people to bully after them......well.....those puppy luckily got no any disease...if not I would be death cause not gonna poke by doctors anymore......really pain you know.....><

what can I do?

Now all is left for me is just to cry....even cry can't help anything but at least my heart will feel better....now no one understand me....the people that I thought can be a part of my world is gone...leaving me hanging alone.....feel like I am a zombie.....no more feeling is the best......cry so much for what? stupid me.....cry le can make everything better? no right? it just make things worse.......hurting for me to reject but he want a desktop....so I must support him.....by not going out with him.....but who will appreciate me? nobody....maybe I get used to nobody appreciate what I have done......what I done is just a bad stuff.....no people really understand me......hate it......


Why I don't have the courage to do it?? why I just don't run away or take a knife killed myself?? what is the purpose for me to do all this thing when nobody appreciate me in the way I do my thing? all just know how to blame me if wrong.....if correct just remain silent.......so I just like not existing in this realistic world....even I try not to cry my heart hurts.....who can understand my feeling? nobody.....all is just selfish.....other people thing is always my thing.....really regret coming this world......why couldn't I just miscarriage when my mum fall?? maybe that decision will make a better me than a now me......always not perfect......not good........hurting people feeling girl........actually I don't see my future in my brain....all I see just a black future....cause I betray my dream since long time ago cause of a lot people.....now left nothing in my head but a word....REGRET....

sad day for me......

Yesterday I get a big grasshopper....but then later on I went to check whether it die already a not.....I notice something very terrible.....the behind leg of grasshopper went to stuck at the net.....making the grasshopper only left wit 4 legs.....how can I continue do my project with such a grasshopper?? later my boy boy call me....talking a lot of non-sense.....my mood already not good....some more with his lots of nonsense I really fed up.....1st time fed up with him....why can't he stop talking nonsense?? why he must keep on talk and talk and talk?? why he can't even help me catch?? his problem is my problem but my problem now have change to my problem izzit?


That day my boy tell me to sponsor him so fuel money....which mean cause of me he is using lots of petrol....cause of me he is wasting his money.....cause of me he can't buy his beloved desktop computer.....cause of me he is using money unnecessarily....fine then....I decided....not going out with him anymore....not gonna watch movie with him anymore....since my money is his.....his money is his......fine with me.......money is now more important to him.....me is going down to the list......I got no comment.....what can I say?? he is changing according to time.......

steamboat....^^

So nice steamboat with my boy boy.......include his 2 friends.....I don't mind cause they all kinda good....treat me like small kid.......I like to be treat as that when I wanted to.........>"< well I think I eat kinda lot yesterday night....the food at there kinda normal actually.....I din't taste the soup of the steamboat so I really don't know how's the taste....I just mind to eat the food.....at the same time after you steam the food you also can bbq....yeah.....I like to bbq food......especially when the mushroom got that crispy feel.....hell yeah.....love it......there also got my lovely ice-cream that is mint chocolate chip........>"< eat till so much that my stomach gonna burst........give my boy boy eat the ice cream he say not nice.....sad....that is my favourite leh.....he say till like that........T^T 


My friend is crazy bout this guy.....where she goes the guy must follow....I know both of you are couple but is that a must for him to follow where you go?? it makes me feel like both of them are dog....sorry to say but is true....no matter where she go he must follow......that also include the biology project....it's actually non of his business actually.....cause we just plan to go there to buy insect....and this crazy people let him follow....what he can do actually at that insect shop?? can he help us to identify? can he help us to name it's common name?? can he do what biology student actually doing? no he cant...cause he is physic class...totally out of our thing......if he can help us pay or help all of us take things that would be ok.....but this is doing fucking nothing & just go there make so many idiot noise with his girl....damn you lar.....both of you cant just go out alone together?? worry you will make something that shouldn't be make?? really can't stand it...some more I think that guy din't tell his beloved girl bout his past......or just maybe telling her bout his beautiful past & not ugly......perhaps....who will know?? he looks like a play boy to me.......><

wtf...~

Fuck him man....why the world so huge must meet him at the place where I took my dinner?? he ruin my appetite to eat my tasty KFC burger.....duh.....I thought at 1st when I see that people back it wasn't him but GOD know......it really was him.....hate to meet him when I don't want to see him....after what he does to me in the past I don't think he is the fucking rightful guy for good girls.....well it's over then.....what for I think so much?? I just don't wish to see him anymore.....my other ex are much more better if compare to him......I guess....haha.....


Well I thought of watching the latest movie at my cinema list here....but then I just don't know when will I get the chance to watch it cause my school is almost time to re-open....I need more time to start my revision so that I wont be the last position in the class again......I hate to be last....but then no choice cause all other peoples memory are better than mine....I got no choice......kinda disappoint when I get almost last in the class.....:(

sad thg..~

Heard my boy say that some one die for love.....a guy that almost same age with my die go to jump building for a girl that he just know for few months....I think is a stupid guy....he so handsome want to worry he can't find a better girl than her? really stupid.....but actually to some one maybe is called romantic or something very sweet cause you die for a girl...but then I totally got no idea want to say what bout this guy....cause I don't want to get involve into any trouble...


However today I really feel sad cause my boy say I fat....I know I very fat......you don't have to keep on mention it.......really sad......I rather he punch me on my face than telling me that.....such a painful knife that struck my heart.........TT well my next week tuition gonna take me 4 hours time.....but then after wed I got no more tuition...such a good thing but then can you imagine that 4 hours tuition will take my dinner away? I gonna eat supper on next wed....that gonna make me more fat & my boy gonna say me again....sad......plan to not eat.....but worry my stomach ache....what should I do??

surprise...?

Today wake up so damn early but my friend always late come & take me....late almost that I nearly go back into my room to catch some sleep....but then luckily they come before I change my mind to not going to that surprise party......actually we reach there on time...if we reach damn early we need to wait for the hero to come.....the cake that they made by himself kinda nice but then the cake is not enough spongy & chocolate is kinda too over sweet......I realize today that the insect that I get is kinda big after see my others group member insect...never thought that grasshopper that they catch is so tiny that my butterfly wings are much more bigger than their whole body.....

After back around 11+ I gone to rubbish dump site to catch those beautiful butterfly again....actually today kinda lot of butterfly came to my net compare to yesterday.....or should I say that my skill of catching those butterfly gone better today?? cause a while only I get a few butterfly.....& my job ends very fast today cause I easily get my amount in a very short time......happy with the butterfly I get........tonight gonna go tuition again....so bored at tuition....hope can play my xdo at tuition time....haix.......

school holiday many thing to do~

Actually at 1st I thought school holiday got nothing much to do so I plan to study for my whole holiday...but then who will know that actually I got lots of stuff haven done.....example is my insect project.....my plant press one I think I have done it...cause there is more than enough of species of plant for this project....however I don't think quadrant project will be done in this holiday cause some of my group members are having their part-time job....so actually most of the time the plan to count those grasses actually is nil....


Some more my tuition got a lot of extra classes cause he worry that next year we can't do well in the important exam....well actually I think we can do well if we practice more & give us know which is the most important stuff...he actually should quit talking & explaining so many other things......those issue we can check it ourself later on.......

i really hungry~

As you can see I really felt hungry yesterday night for not eating my dinner.....kinda regret telling him I ate biscuit already.......but then he really pro....play online games until can't feel his hunger.....even he telling me that he not hungry but I don't such a way cause if he really doesn't hungry then how come he want to eat supper??XD some more supper as rice leh........hard to believe that.........

But then my supper is a drink of warm barley......actually kinda happy cause din't eat dinner but at least got a supper of barley.....not bad after all.....still at least got something enter my stomach.......luckily till now my stomach din't show any gastric symptom.......really appreciate it.....^^

trick dou me~

Aiya....today morning got school extra biology class...tomorrow also will be the same......such a bored day.....never thought that the 1st batch of "Rapunzel" is so damn late......luckily din't go to jj with friend in such an  early hours....if not I really don't know want to do what at there since I no money to spend anymore.......looks like my da da don't like to wait me cause he say he already very late only come fetch me but who know that I will be more late than him since that time I tell him around 2 oni come but I din't ready in time due to some problem........


The movie kinda nice.....funny & cute drawing they had....really enjoy watching the movie....but then the movie start kinda late......lucky it start late cause I get chances to meet them.....however they just ignore me just like that.....I hate it when people saw me but then ignore me......argh~~!!! At 1st I really thought he telling me having a dinner with his dad is just like normal dinner but who know later on I found out it was a real dinner....with waiting other people to come......I kinda worry him cause he actually allergic to alcoholic drinks but then he drink so much........& my heart pain when I see he force himself to eat & drink some more.......if can't do it just tell them that you are full la......haix........


At same time I saw one of my net friends & then most incredible she walk in front of me & can't see me again....such a sad day....people can't even notice my presence........did I really so invisible to them??? next time gonna wear something sharp so that people can notice that I actually is standing write in front of them......1st time cook food at other people place really hard....cause I cant get used to the situation at there......those atmosphere but I still finish cook it & taste a bit not like what I aspect it will be....kinda failure.....pity him eat my failure food.....haih~~

so wat?

Haha......you love me so what? you haven got me & you already showing me so much of request.......talking to me like you fully understand me....shut up.....you don't even know the real me yet.....as long I still young there is always some difference in me.....if you think I wont change then you must have a wrong idea of me.......more worse is you not even friends with me yet.....how can you immediately tell me to jump to lover part if friends also haven be?? weird people.......


Yesterday having a great time with my da da......but then I really cant take today morning........I get some new news that my friends "engagement" they gonna pay for all.....but then I don't to owe him anything.....I fucking don't like him cause he that time so action with me......some more I don't think both of them gonna last long....so I go just no meaning.....more cant take is present must be present to them due to their engagement......damn you la.....is just a fake engagement why want to do so much of thing?? if real never mind but this is just too not logic......I cant accept it......fine........absolute not going......hope they all regret of going to that place........should be say hope not many people going to there due to not interested to their fake engagement?? haha......trying to be bad people here.........

tuition tuition & tuition........like never end~

Well my this week & next week fully book time of tuition....dont even have time to get some rest......suddenly so many thing to learn & memorize......could this be any more worse than 2 week non-stop with books??? early morning till night I need to go to tuition......argh....cant stand it anymore......at tuition is more bored when I cant get connected with what the teacher is talking in front.......darn.......


After my class today I saw my ex-bf at delta doorstep leh......shock of my life.....at 1st I thought I saw the wrong people but then I notice is not mistake....is really him.....& I really want to take my courage that time ask how's he been doing recently....but then I made up my mind for not doing so...cause I think his gf beside him.....is rather weird suddenly ex-gf come & talk with you while your gf is still beside u.....but that is my point of view.....happy for him if he really got new gf....hope he can have a happy ending with her.....just a wishes.....no any other meaning.....


Well next week gonna start my brain to absorb everything like sponges again......TT cant imagine how those genius study......

childish~

I really now having a thinking that my friends are not mature yet.....some times they will give some very brilliant mature idea but some times the idea is too over childish...well I have to say bout this is actually a very sensitive thing so I don't dare to say much but do you really think engagement really can tie your partner from finding another girl.....or something like dog in a cage stuff?? I want to share bout something that I face that is my friend which is same age as me is gonna engage with her guy which is also same age just to let her guy enter our class private group.......I really cant imagine it....why must she so desperate to let her guy enter out group?? is not like her guy got come & join us outing or something like that....even got they later still will spoil our outing atmosphere cause they are couple.......& most irritating is I must go.....sorry to say but FUCK U!!


Both of you engagement is not real at all & not like I gonna to waste my money just to see that few sec thg.....you stupid or what?? why must you do it at a closed room with friends looking at your engagement?? why cant you do in public places or less walker places?? is not like very private thing also.....if you really want to do this kind of stuff do it for real......if you do it for fun what's the point? is just waste of time & money.....now is end of year & many people is having a big difficulty in money.....cant you think of something that is convenience?? even study is genius but I don't think that they are having a mature mind.....is just like child......hate it when I not in childish mindset......some more that day is my day......why cant they just pick other day of so many day?? argh~~!!


At last I would just like to say if both of you ever come across this please don't mention in front of me......cause this I just want to express out my feeling.....I really so can't take both of you......if you want your guy to enter this family please la......concern bout other people too.....our group is not for you to having a stupid fucking sweet chit chat.....cause I not even give a damn bout what both of you will be talking......some more he is totally another class la girl....are you blind?? we want the group is from our class only........but even the organizer want him to be in group I also got no choice but definately ignore his existance in the group.....hate to say it but I don't think is a good choice of putting him in our group cause he from another class & I definately don't want to see their sweet talk in the group.........

xdo~

Can you imagine that I have been playing xdo for many hours & it seem to be not enough at all.....I think I really addicted to this game already.....but then yesterday went out with my dear is kinda nice lor.....just that he need to wait kinda long at my house cause I need to do a lot of housework & trying to kill cockroaches.....kinda lucky because get caught a pair of cockroaches....some more I just need 1 suddenly out so many cockroaches....kinda scary because I scare of cockroaches......damn it......need to do such scary thing for next year mark.....I really need to take my courage out to do this thing.....


Yesterday got tuition but then I din't go because is kinda far some more I cant wake up so damn early in the morning.....this wed some more got so many thing to do....morning around 7+am my school project then 10.30-1300 is my tuition time.....then late evening my tuition again at 6.45 pm to 9pm......really pack my time on wed....argh....!! I don't know how can I take so long of tuition hours without getting dreaming in tuition......haha......well I gonna catch my butterfly & dragonfly since I get my chance to touch the net & I finally get back my book from my friend......now I really can use my holiday time to power up but I kinda worry if I got time for this power up a not cause I scare I will keep on out.......but nevermind.....what we need is quality not quantity~~hehe~~

genting with relatives....~

Well I went to genting on saturday nite & back on sunday evening.....reach house at night thou......however I really cant believe myself finish playing outdoor games at genting in just few hours time.....maybe because of no people at that time..........If not mistaken is around 12+pm only got a lot of people.....I & my cousin sister start playing around 9.......so glad that temperature is kinda low & I loving it......


Really cant fall sleep at the 1st night at hotel........therefore I go back to my room around 2+am in the morning......spend my time at genting cc is really kinda pain in the wallet but I think is worth because able to play my game nicely at there.........had my breakfast at Restaurant Hainan is really kinda nice.....but I just put too much of sugar in my tea & too much sauce at my egg.....making my breakfast too over sweet & salty....really scary if think back.....bread is kinda nice but if the bread is more soft then it will be more nice......hehe......


Need to catch some sleep now cause din sleep for 1 night.......happy for going to genting with my relative.....but then I kinda wanna laugh them when they waiting for a bus just for a short journey......is near but they seem to wait for half hour just for a bus when we can reach there just in 10 minutes......

journey to 1u & after that......

Sometimes I feel myself very useless....cause many place haven been before....especially KL place....yesterday telling my friend that I haven been to 1 Utama before he like shock in his entire life...cause he thought I lie to him saying that I never been before....well really I haven been before.....cause my parent don't know the way so they cant take me go there......& my parent already very old.....I can't afford them to take me such a far places with their bad health.......so I need to go myself but I don't always have such many money to go to such places because even daily expenses also very high at there......some times I rather stay in my place & shop at there.....


However this is a very nice place to go cause there got plenty of option of choosing.....even dresses you can get confuse which one to see cause there is just too many shop over there........I just go there to watch movie only....my friend keep on saying that young people at there like to dress mature.....& I dress look so big differences between them....well.......I just simply wear on.....how can you aspect me to look so mature when I simply wear on some cloths?? watched "Megamind" kinda nice......not a bad movie at all......


Most interesting is I meet a handsome guy which is his friend but then he is smoking so totally out of my cup of tea......haha.......& I cant imagine that I been playing bowling with my skirt.....hard to imagine......but I still can get strike for the 1st time in my life.....happy thou.....waited for so long & just play for few minutes and all is gone......back to house.....but before going back had my dinner at "Taipei Walker"....prices is affordable......food & drink is really worth cause is not like my area with so little amount & high prices.......nice memory to save.....gonna save my memory.........~

party duh...~

The party is not like what I thought it will be......cause as I can see there is too over little tables & chairs.......small section of alcoholic drinks........DJ keep on repeating the same song........when the earlier batch of people reach to spot there is no food & drink that have been prepare readily....still need to wait some more........dancing stage is so out of my thinking that it really doesn't look like a dancing stage........in time between is kinda ok....but after they all start to high all don wan go dance even they keep on shaking badly mad........most I cant take it is people wanted to go back the organizer keep on do something else.....is such a no respect to guests.......& the sound system is purely bad I telling ya.....my friends house sound system is so much better than that.......freaking lucky that none of my friends going with me.....if not I sure got no face to face them for bring them to such a "wonderful" party........duh......not going to attend such open party anymore.....

outing at sunway~

Yesterday is such a wonderful day for me.......cause able to go sunway hanging out with my friends again.....but then too early wake up to go to sunway ended up having difficult time to find nice food to eat.....however still ended eat outside of sunway lor......skating for more than 5 hours really taking my leg away.......I really can feel my leg paining after playing for so long time with my skate shoe tie so tightly on my leg.....really at a moment my leg is totally numb....even you cut my leg most probably I dont even notice at all......>"<

Eating dinner also is a rough thing to do.....after walking to some where very far ended up going to some where very far too.....at 1st we go to a cafe that really too over expensive......then change decision to some where very far too.....ended up having a nice dinner but the table seem to be so small for me cause a lot of people siting on the same table......13 people siting on same table....can you imagine how small will my place be???

Later when going back time we spend 1 hour at bowling......I play bowling for the 1st time in my life......my accuracy kinda suck......cant even strike a match.......such a pity thing.....unlike my friend that play bowling in their life they having a good performance at there........I am having a stupid act on the lane......darn......and most I cant forget is another transport having roughly around 8 people on the van is having a bad luck day....when they go to find us at outside shop of sunway they went wrong place & have to give toll money twice.....then when back time they lost their parking ticket ended up very late only go back to their house.....& have to give RM20 as fine for losing their ticket....kinda pity them......

But still is a nice day......cause having able to go back on time & come to fetch me on time........having such a expensive trip is really worth.......I loving it.....^^

argh.....!!

In the breaking of dawn.....where my most sweet moment of sleeping suddenly my leg so so so itchy.....my sick is coming back again......I put some aloe is still no use cause it still get itchy......then really can't take it I wake up so damm early that now my eyes is so dry even want to blink also difficult.....after put some white wine on my leg it become better.......& luckily my leg now is better than last time......even is red but can't see any spot but it's almost like uneven colour on my skin.......

I need to go out later & I can't wear short pants later.......I will be like so hot later & sweat a lot cause is not really a cold whether for me to wearing long jeans........some more later at night I still got tuition.....impossible for me to wear long jeans to tuition cause it's a very hot place for me......hope my leg can stop becoming itchy soon......really can't take the itchy......argh.....~~~

outing wit friends.....

At 1st is kinda clumsy cause we get mix up about the time we should be going to friends open house due to deepavali......some more suddenly the guy that say got this class that class will be late suddenly changes time make me get confuse bout what time should be ready.......but then I still get ready at the same time even I sweat like hell after ready for it........unfortunately the driver fault that I have to wait so so long time which is almost like more than half an hour.......wait till hair also grow white already..........


The food at friend open house nice......especially the mutton curry......cause I got a bad image bout mutton...cause last time I get invited by different indian friend & her mutton curry so hard to eat.......cause the flesh stick so well to the bone that is almost like no flesh is coming out for me to chew you know........then after eating,talking & taking full picture we then go to another 2 friends house.........around 12 reach my favourite cafe lor........I thought that he will be joining us to drink but who know his friend don't want to join.........haiz.......so no choice gonna drink up my alcoholic drinks........


Can't imagine my friend face is so red almost like a big red balloon......& he keep on claimed himself that he haven't drunk & still can drink some more......I think he is really drunk already....cause he drink so fast.....sure will ended up like that one......well hope he still can awake for his morning class thou.......^^

it hurt's~

I thought yesterday go ice-skating today morning wont happen anything but it well get well.....but who know today only all the effect shows........my left hand cant use any energy cause I think my hand get twisted.....some part of my right hand swollen.....but I really don't know what I hit yesterday..........kinda funny when think back bout yesterday........I wanna fall but din't fall.......showing some weird action to thousand of eyes watching me.....kinda embarrassed me at that time.......


My butt so pain today.......cause muscle cramp.......when walking time can feel the stretching of my muscle butt......then yesterday when the moment I take off my skating shoes my feet is totally no more feeling.......which means that I tie too over tight already......but if din't tie so tight later when you skate you sure will fall down cause the blade not straight.........really is enjoyable moment that I wont never forget.....I wish to have another gathering like this again......can't wait for it to happen.....

wee~

Had a great time at sunway today....even go wrong road but still we still made it in time....eat sushi buffet that kinda expensive but not really very nice the food......service kinda bad.....then go to ice skating........fall down twice......it hurt's at my butt.......really hurt.......then most funny is my friend that molested me get to fall down on the next few second.....hard to believe it......but my pants is so wet cause fall down on the wet ice.......


My bio pass d leh.....so damm happy jor.....cause when holiday don't need to do any homework that she will giving to those that fail.....but I fail math T & chemistry......that rili make me sad.....but never mind......I will do my best in the coming exam.......

argh

Rili cnt go ma today?
Y cnt go?? 
Y cnt give me a good reason for cnt go??
Y oways cnt go out wit him??
Wat u don like bout him??
Wat u bo song??
I regret telling u bout our thg......cz I tell u is don wan u keep ask me stupid question but hu knw u selfish...
U don let me out cz u selfish.....u worry u no chance to see me like I gonna death soon......
I hate u for being selfish........I hate u deeply in my heart.......
B4 tat I wit my ex u aso like tis......now u aso like tis........
Everytime u aso like tis.............I hate u for k me now.......
I wish u jz don k me let me live according to my wish..........
U don even und a fucking thg I wan.....so wat d purpose u born me out????
All u wan from me is being ur "robot"....so y u wan give me a soul??? Y????!!!!

bad luck......

So bad luck lor today....go watch tat "Altitude" nvr imagine it will be such a boring movie lai d.....n then nvr tot tat I will lost d movie ticket.......so actually need to buy a new movie ticket agn..........when Heng Shen come fetch me time he need to wait so long n then some more need to help my frend to email her assignment leh......so damm ma fan lor........

Suddenly my mum msg my da da n tell him somethg tat veli accurate tat I have guess.......tat is blaming him for our argue lor.....so sampat leh.......I nvr imagine my mum will be like tat lor........kek sei me lor.......then more worse part tat is genting ystdy got accident ma......but tat accident is bus not car......I go genting is by car lor......so y cnt let me go??? wat is da relationship bus got to do wit car??? some more d driver check everythg d n not me oni gal go nia lor........y wan so worry?? I wont go up to genting in middle of nite but on d next day morning wor...........y keep don let me go??? y thk till so negative?? some more my da da air-cond suddenly spoil d.......I thk I cause it spoil cz I damm bad luck today......

haih~~

Look like I mon gonna go to tat fucking boring skul....especially mon there got nth special n all is bored subject on tat day....wondering how I gonna survive on such a boring day.......fuck lar my parent......I don wan go cz is a boring day.....some more I wan to relax ma.....jz fin exam not long......brain power sure off d lar.....now suddenly wan me go study like I nvr seen a book in my life b4.........


Even my chemis teacher aso knw how to say jz fin exam brain power sure off but then my parent don und keep telling me to study.....I rili plan to study during d holiday cz even my tuition teacher ystdy say holiday is da best time to catch up all left out tis year........but then even tell my parent they still don let......1st thg is saying y put ownself skul holiday......but my frend d put them in holiday.........y cnt they even try a bit to und tat I rili got to rest?? I rili had a stressful life.......modern study life is not like their ancient time skul life....happily study.....now is being force to study not willing study by myself.....so force n willing study is diff thg........they wan to learn more but not me......cz I don thk wat I learn in skul will rili gonna applicate in my real life....eg like additional math.....is not like when we buy thgs we need such a complicated counting......is not like we gonna have a better life if additional math is good........


I jz fed up of being inside hse.....no freedom to do anythg tat I like....no freedom to go whr I wan.....no freedom to say wat I wan........all is like prisoner to me......I don like parent keep on nagging to me saying wat should be done & wat not..........now student life is not like their student life....their life don need to compare so much of thg....don need to worry so many thg......but nowdays many thg need to be worry........even my teacher cn und but y not them?? even outsider cn und......hard to believe wat actually call family member.....outsider seem to be like more a family member to me n not my real family member.......they don even try a hack min to und me......they jz k bout themself.......when I din k for me......all those scolding....nagging....complain will come to my ears.......hate it.........I hate to be in tis family.........I jz cnt be my ownself in here.........cnt blame me if I search for outside ppl to become nearer to me n not u guys......sorry~

y like tis geh???

Izzit me facing it o all feel tat all parent like tat geh?? y I wan go genting for 1 day aso cn?? I mon no go skul aso ma......y cnt let me go relax a while?? I veli stress d leh cz exam last week....wanted to release stress but now wan me everyday study.....holiday aso wan me study geh but jz a fake promise saying let me out.....ccb......I si beh bo happy lor.......cry for 1 hour d now eye so damm dry lor........I rili holiday will study leh....y u jz cnt trust me???


Y my frend during skul days cn go genting but I cnt?? y I definately mz listen wat u say?? I don have rite to reject to listen izzit?? Tis is 2nd time I cry for not able to go out wit my beloved one.....y cnt u und tat I during exam week haven meet him n now wanted to spend some time wit him since tat time exam I rili no pei dou him?? tell me y..........I rili wan to spend some time with him la.....I 2 week no meet him miss him ma.....like tat aso cnt und d mother......some more say me tis say me tat.....I shouldn't tell her tat thg.....if not sure easily let me go d leh......haix.....regret telling her.......but I stuck in middle like sandwhich.........I hate it....darn.......

exam over....time to ply agn~

Wher should I go for my vacation?? wat should I do for my vacation?? Actually I plan to go genting then go kai kai geh but then hu knw tat dec so many chemis class leh.....then some more still got PA class.....some more still got 3 experiment to do......need to do revision for next year syllabus.....pity me.....


Exam paper is back n my math T score is 20....fuyoh.........I become more worse n worse d.......then my chemis paper 2 get 32 out of 100....at least got 1/3 of d score.....cnt imagine wat my percentage will be........then today morning suddenly hear my frend(I hate her) wan give motor hit......I so damm hapi......do bad thg tat will happen.....so I waiting for d bad thg to happen on me since I aso do many bad thg.....wakaka.........

cool~

Great 1.....day b4 examination of heavy sub I still cn relax surfing net.....which mean rili tis time I don thk wan to seriously do tat exam........cz teacher d say question will be hard & tricky....which mean even v study pass percentage hard to predict lor.......better depend on wat I und ans d question better......


I tot ystdy many ppl go....but now thk back maybe is d opposite way.......cz I thk she will call malay & indian lor......cz they "1 malaysia" .....but I not rili tat kind if come to personal thgs.......hehe........so hu k?? rili bored sun lar today.....n I get pissed off too today....cz I call mummy so many time n she din ans.....at last after 30 min non-stop calling she hear my call......glad she listen to my call......fb recently so boring.....no ppl available for me to disturb.....some more long time din go watch movie d......I kinda wanna watch movie but surely no ppl cn take me go cz I got no more "fans"......some more even got aso is tat f~ guy.....I hate him so much especially when I haven lc he keep say I lc.....dulan d......delete him n nvr approve him......not gonna ans his call......f~ irritating......jz like flee in my bed......an example not rili got flee in my bed.....haha~~

failing d lar tis time~~

Great...faster congratz me for failing for my skul end year exam.......not oni din study flip d book aso cnt even rmb a term in my head..........cnt thk of anythg.........cnt imagine my tis week sub will get wat kind of score......rili cnt memorize anythg d......jz cn rmb song's lyric but not book......how how how?? my muet essay din do well......lots of points I forget to put in......darn..........such a weak memory.......


So tonite party I'm not goin.......1st no transport......2nd don wan c tat cb po........3rd don wan c my ex........4th ur hse damm hot no air cond.......5th din buy present.......6th I not gonna donate blood at ur hse........so got lots of good reason for not goin.........so wat to do?? juz don go oni lar.........ur 21th birthday party no relation wit me......

exam exam exam~

Now exam season all bz study....wan fb o blogging aso bo time.....too many thg to study in short time.......today exam so freaking easy but then cnt thg of anythg.....darn.......rili duno wan how to sit for STPM d lar........I c so many ppl got so many thg to write but not me........rili cham d la me........cnt imagine my bio n chemis will die till how........


Recently I been thking y cny so early of feb........y cnt late bit?? I prefer to be late bit cz cn waste a lot time at ppl hse.....but now look like cnt le lar.......time passes veli fast in d early month lor......don like time past fast geh leh........miss some of my old no contact d frend but whenever I send msg to them no ppl reply me geh.....so bad lor......some more chg le num aso no tell me......pity dao........treat them good don wan appreciate me geh....suak.....wakaka....don wan choi u d.....bad frend lai d~

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Exam is on thurs n till now I rili haven prepare myself for d next week heavy exam man.....so damm hard.....cnt imagine my biology teacher gonna set wat type of question tis time.......rili don have confident to answer her question.....it will be somethg out of d box.....my muet today exam on speaking n is so damm low.....I in lower ban 3 while I tot if I not nervous maybe I could enter ban 4.....so sad when I heard I become lower ban 3....haix.....


Tml gonna be my chemistry experiment 15 n till now cnt even find a single source from internet that is related to it.....y so many thg unrelated to it come out?? y ppl oways do such thg?? even my amphibian & mammals presentation for my biology aso hard to find......so many unrelated thgs.......

so fast??

B4 tat when I c my calender is still like so long till my exam......without even notice my exam is around d corner & I haven do my revision yet.........actually I plan to simply do cz it will make me more relax n c thg better u knw......I cnt do exam in a tension mood.....mark will jz simply get very low in d class........my class mate all too clever......cnt fight wit them bout education......but if somethg else mayb got chances.......haha..........without my prior notice is end year.......n my birthday is omost 2 month from now.........chinese new year is omost 3 month plus from now......wonder next year will get d same amount of money a not.........cz each year my money is getting lesser n lesser.......money value is smaller.........but other country seem to becoming bigger n bigger......wat wrong wit my country???


I so envy those ppl tat eat a lot but cnt fat......jealous to look at some 1 at my age having a damm hot sexy body........I wish cn have d same thg too but gene is not d same.......I hate myself for being fat cz fat cnt buy those beautiful shirt n d shirt for fat ppl usually damm expensive.........my family cnt even afford to buy such thg for me......I rili mz diet d.........d college tat interview me so fast calling me for 2nd interview d......I wonder actually wat their good qualification of student is...........cz my result so bad if be their good qualification of student then how bout those result tat better than me?? how come they din interview them but me?? weird weird thg........cnt und it till now........

LC counselor~

Damm u LC counselor calling from duno which collegue.....wan to intro ppl go to tat collegue study cz not many ppl goin n now u use such a LC way to talk wit me.....some more is government collegue leh.....waseh....tat collegue at Puchong n d way she talking so big mouth lor.......say she can predict wat I will get for my STPM since she been counselor for around 8 years.......fuck u........then y don u predict ur own future?? wat cn u get from getting high mark in exam?? din prove u clever o wat so ever cz u study then ltr no exam u forget.....so wat d purpose I study so hard for exam n not myself?? for wat I wan to get good result but then I real life I so suck?? get my point?? 


Most I bo song is I jz fall slp not long she call me.....nvm lar......then she say she will oni take good quality study to enter tat collegue oni......WTF........me get 1A n u calling me to enter?? is tis call good qualification?? go die lar u.....u should call ppl wit flat A go n not me leh.....me wat flat aso bo.......deng u lar......indian gal some more tim.......y all indian gal talk to me si beh LC 1?? say till like she is god cn predict my exam mark.....if she rili cn then go die become GOD lar......still being a human for wat?? useless 1.....tat collegue name nvr hear b4.....duno real a not geh..........I still damm bo song she say Sej & BM most easy lor......cz each ppl got diff understanding d ma......she say PA I wont get good result if Sej & BM no A....diu kao u......PA easy oni lar.......wat so hard?? jz problem is how u write it oni ma.....duno jiu simply say........tat time I lazy wan correct u oni cz in slping mood.....if not u sure kena 99 lat from me COUNSELOR~~!!

ponteng ponteng~~

Yeah....so addicted to ponteng skul on mon cz can go out wit my beloved 1......some more now is PMR season n tis make me more wan to ponteng since my mon timetable I take math as important sub for d day.......however d teacher need to be PMR guard so she wont be in skul for tat PMR week............so absolutely I will ponteng lor......but then kinda sad when suddenly next week they plan wan to go sing k n I cnt folo them......huhu...T^T


Today tot cn go watch movie geh but then no more any new movie......kek sim lor......tot today go out cn watch movie geh but hu knw din watch dao anythg.....jz go there for walk walk nia......walk till my little end toes got water balloon lor.......hope tml wear skul shoe wont explode....tml got experiment n I at nite while eating dinner wit my dada n his dad oni notice d msg.....kek sim dao.....but then I veli thankful to my frend cz telling me tml got experiment..........


My mum like veli bu shuang me go out wit him jor......wat should I do leh??

wasei~

My hp back from hospital d leh......happy dao but then my another SIM d num got problem hai me need to pay RM10 for another new card but then still same num lar......all num I lost le lar.......kek sam dao..........luckily tat leng zhai got ask me my sim inside got how many money.....but then got bit regret cz din tell him my money is roughly at RM60.......cz he aso duno my exact value lor......but not good lie ppl......I too good to lie ppl.....hehe~~


My dinner eat KFC leh......shit d la me.....sure fat dao no ppl regonise me leh....cz I today go to weight n c how tall I am......result is I am so so so overweight man.........I rili sad lor........cz last time aso not so fat leh.....kek sam lor........pity my da da cz he head pain.......but now I veli sad cz I fat le n need some ppl to comfort me wit some jokes.........TT.....jz out for a 2 hours in d morning n I spend so much d.......RM100 nearly lor.....cz buy shoes.......buy my dog food........pay for d digi thg......buy my tml morning breakfast......haix..........I hate it when I got not enuf money to spare.......feel kinda down.......not gonna write le........

so pissed off~~

Argh......wheather today so hot making me sweat like hell then feeling so damm uncomfortable d make me starting to have bit pissed off......after having a nap I wake up wan to open my study table to study I hit my toes n is damm pain........study till half suddenly got a guy saying wan to be my guy.....shit lar u......suddenly msg come jiu say such fucking thg.......I hate ppl come n msg me saying wan to be my guy.....u thk I wat?? fuck u lar......today fin tuition early so wat?? still need to wait so long for ppl to come n fetch me.....tell my mum to call my dad she din notice my msg until I call her......si beh dulan d.....some more raining no drive car come take me in rain........fine lar.......then come back hse she say me "Y u din msg ur dad? he is d one tat fetch u wat......u msg me for wat??" wei........dad knw how to c short cut meh?? some more give me so many excuse......me din reply ur msg u say me now I like tis u pulak......argh~~!!!


I hate ppl call me when I having a nap.......make me "mang zhang" lor.........I thk most ppl aso d same leh........tell my mum don need to buy my lunch she insist n then I wake d 1st thg she talk to me is "Hungry le ma?? go eat..." walao eh.......jz wake how to hungry?? tat time fire in stomach d leh.....still got mood eat meh u thk?? shit lar today.......I hate it......bad luck n bad mood~bio practical aso do dao like shit........sim card of my another num suddenly give me so many trouble........saying PIN code....PUK num.....deng lar.....insert le not ok aso leh.........now oni cn use 1 num.....sienz lar.......no ppl to msg wit....n not like got anythg special to chat btw him n me......use tat sim for wat??

4/10/10

Wasabi minna.........u knw wat mean wasabi a not ar?? is not food but it means wassup lor.......wakaka.......got boom dao mou?? chill lar........"Alpha & Omega" & "The Legend of The Guardian" is ok lor.....not as bad as I tot it will be......kinda enjoy watching these 2 movie lor...........but then I watch wit sandy & angel tee of d movie I said......try to guess urself which one lor.........my breakfast is McD n my lunch is KFC......wakaka.......full dao........I still cnt find I wan d shoes at jj leh.........shit dao.......oways my favourite stuff gone veli fast geh......kek sim dao..........


Ystdy pass through tat Big Donut feel wan to buy tat donut tat got sushi decoration ontop of it but then ltr I worry not delicious lor........o mayb too sweet cz I drink too much of gas water d leh.......some more drink tat si beh sweet yogurt drink.........but kinda nice if serve it cold.........hehe.........my dinner ok nia la..........but then today at skul oni notice tat I got somethg important haven do tat is I haven read for my bio tat gonna study n my chemis file.........but nvm lor........still got tml time for me to catch up.......hope I wont be left far lor........hehe.......^^

y like tis geh??

Y all my shoes spoil at same time??y my dad oways thk bout himself n not bout us?? y my dad so selfish n say bad bout his spouse since he d one propose to her?? is it all men say "I do" in d marriage is just lies?? say will take k of her no matter how sick.....how worse d condition......how poor it gonna be......izzit just a sheet to hide all bad thg tat they do behind??? izzit car more important than wives?? when bad mood n not happy wit work........u go scold ur spouse suddenly n then go out without taking k of her feeling n child...........u did it infront of child eyes......how cn a child respect u when u do such bad thgs??? I cnt comment too much ltr my spouse will become more worse than HIM......I don wan tat to happen.......must take k my talking~~~


Well my math teacher give whole class math homework is like so damm hard.....I cnt even find an ans to d question she had in d paper.....some more is 50 question lor.....how cn a dumb ppl possible to ans all??? my bio presentation so death......all my point is like meaningless.........cz I thk is veli bad for copy directly from book.....my pic some more is so bad in quality man........shit d lar......so death.........


I saw I wan d shoes d but then d price is far too expensive n is high heel..........darn......I don wan high heels cz walking time veli noisy n after wearing it my leg cn break into pieces leh.........y everytime I love tat thg sure will gone veli fast?? izzit destiny tat I cnt have my favourite thg around me??? izzit GOD like to ply wit my emotion??? haix........rili so so so sad........oways like tis~~

new pic of me~~sure will get scold~

My new pic.....hope to get some comment from everyone.......no matter what comment it's still doesn't matter cause I prepare myself for public critics......

                   

eye veli tired leh~

Recently kinda bz so less on9 n naturally less update my blog lor.....well is kinda tiring my eye even though I slp enuf le.........duno y today morning had a weird dream n suddenly I become other ppl alarm clock cz need to wake him up.............my hp mayb next month o wait till I bored le oni take go repair........another hp no money n feel don wan to reload it cz not like everyday my msg is gonna be many like 200+ perhaps?? I don mind boro my hp to other ppl to call once in a blue moon but not oways lor............


Holiday homework many haven do n now is rushing myself to do it since my exam is next month 21 lor.......I got many haven study n many work to do since I veli dumb in study........hehe.......I been darken since ystdy ply basketball under d damm hot sun........rili hot........I wonder y skul don wan to do some indoor space for us to ply......next mon not goin to skul cz teacher say will got a teacher farewell event but I worry d even will take whole day time......rili wan mc a day d la....everyday go to skul so damm tired~~~>"<


I suddenly made up my mind wan to have my 1st car as an old old car..........n I plan wan go to genting work since my frend ystdy tell me d salary at genting kinda higher compare to here.......some more he say wont be using much at there since food n hse is provided wit no transport cz near oni......but I wonder which area it will be n how near izzit??

hot ar~

Ystdy wheater is so so hot lor during afternoon time....kek sam no rain in my area here.....make me headache.......hate too over sunny day........even go out time feeling is burning my skin when d sunlight hit my skin......ystdy got skul replacement n so less ppl go to skul today.......my class teacher so damm happy cz she get d highest amount of student come to skul for d day........=3= I duno skul got tis kind of thg d leh.......most funny is my next class door jz 1 student come......n I'm thking she is too over solo d......din connect wit other ppl n at last she hit d wall cz no ppl open d class door for her......wakaka..........too over scare of stranger n wan to act like she damm pretty wait for ppl to talk n close wit her while she keep on ignore them getting less frend is d effect.......duno y she wan so solo for wat leh.........if wan then go collegue lor but I thk hardly to go solo since v at a more higher lvl dude............except u rili strong la........


Nite watch tat "Legend of Fist" kinda nice lor......I like d guy fighting part leh......damm yeng lor.......but then ended up my waist cramp in d morning........din do yoga so long whole body so easy cramp d......so sad lor........I wan become healthy as old me ar but then no time n spirit to do so.....need a more burning n aggressive spirit........how to enforce it to become like tis??? duno...........

hmph~!

Chew.......today I got a frend of mine saying somethg tat I don like to hear much tat is "U so bad......I don wan choi u d....." okie.....since she n her frend say out tis word then don choi me lar.....not like I gonna choi u lor.....cz I am a mirror leh........n even ystdy d test say tat I good hearted doesn't mean u cn bully me......I like to help ppl at same time I cn choose not to help u......is not like I purposely wan fly off ur highlighter when I take ur pencil case.....it drop naturally so y mz me take oni?? y cnt u take urself since tat thg is ur 1?? since I more further away n got other ppl nearer to it.......y mz me??? u get education so high mark then??? its not like ur life consists of edu oni........some time I wonder izzit I mature o childish?? how come some time my thking is damm good n sometimes not??? I wonder......well I get back my exam from d monthly test......d marks all suck......so wat?? I simply study oni wat......wait till d last min oni u decide whether I clever o dumb......n doesn't mean tat get low mark in edu is a dummy.......sometimes tis dummy will teach u somethg tat u nvr even imagine lor........dumb is not a fault lor.......


But tat I thk tat test saying tat I like to social wit ppl.......like freedom d most.......do thg tat other ppl nvr touch b4 is I like d most.......I rili plan to become a forensic other than high salary.......it's like no ppl cn fight wit me in d place at tat section......free of competition n they seem to face lots of diff thg everytime......based on d test they say I like new environment n new thg.....well it's damm true......I rili like it tat much.....I don like to receive order frm ppl tat I thk is not worth for me to listen......hehe.....


So glad tat my former P.A teacher come back to teach me paper 1 lor......cz d recently teacher teaching is like damm bored n fucking irritating cz he keep on talk n not writing even a single thg on board like d heck v und wat he explaining..........n he talk like train how cn v catch wat he talk......??? even d most clever cnt catch it(I thk)........I rili wan to eat durian n chocolate mooncake lor......tot he will buy for me but hu knw he jz keep on talk n talk n talk......keep ask me wher got sell........I thk he got no heart wan to buy for me aso cz he like not rili trying his best to get 1 for me..........rili should depend on myself......get it on myself.......cnt lazy even a while......darn~~

random tues~

Aiyoyo......so damm slpy leh.......no matter wat class today keep slp leh.....so wat?? haha.......slp nia ma not snoozing in class.........hehe......exam next month around 11 leh........I wat aso haven read haven study n prepare myself to get fail n low low mark.......mayb I should start to prepare myself to get d last num in class even my name is d 1st list in d class........wakaka~~ well d book I boro is return n my home work is like mountain so high......I so death meat.....need waste many time to done all holiday homework now............n then raining today when my skul finishes make me become turtle swim back.........hehe~~


Eye kinda tired duno y.....n my eye bag is getting worse day by day lor.......cham d lor.....rili like panda d leh.......my dislocated left knee so pain lor......whenever I knee down sure pain when I stand up back......argh........y take so long to heal it?? have I become more unhealthy d?? should start back my yoga le lar......mz become healthy lor......if not sick d so death leh........bo lui to c doctor lor me~~ poor gal lai d....XD then I feel I veli fat d lor cz ystdy my frend say I become more cute which mean I not beautiful d leh.......so sad jor........even my white shirt aso start to getting tighter by each day........I rili fat so much d ma??? mean I rili cn blame him cz of my fatness.......cz of his fucking selfishness now I become so fat........I promise myself tat I wont so dumb accept him anymore if he got find me back.........but is impossible......jz to comfort myself oni.....wakaka~~

shit lar~

Haiz.....wat a bad day today........well I bring my sport shirt to skul chg cz I tot will got games d cocuriculum.....but hu knw is cancel....make me go call my mum.......call is wasted cz ended up folo my transport back.......din bring hp is most difficult moment for time to pass cz ntg to do since my frend today all like no spirit to make noise.......regret din take hp to skul cz everytime no take hp oni will happen to call o sms lor........when I bring either he bz o no ppl reply my msg at all when I need them d most.......most irritating is my hp suddenly give me a big problem.......ystdy nite suddenly off......today noon oni cn on back......nvm......then jz not long ago no sound out frm d speaker.......nvm.......then on9 till half suddenly cnt type anythg.....nvm.........then suddenly my whole page gone!! nvm........then till now aso no respond......fuck u!! stupid hp........gonna throw u away after my warranty end........I wan another better hp d......use till fucking pek cek......then some more suddenly my aunt call me scolding me y put both of their pic on fb......diu kao u........u say don put both of u ma but I got mix wit so many ppl some more if I edit le d album hu cn notice tat is him??? she mood not good jiu cn talk wit me like tat so when I bo song wan talk wit hu??? no ppl will be there to listen to my talk.........even him bz.........hate today.........go back early got no use cz ended up slp at bed.........so fucking tired n fucking bad luck.......damm u~~!

port dickson~

Today back d........weird thg is goin time n  back time is big diff lor.......reach hse around 3 but tat time go around 1 reach around 3+ leh~~ y got so big diff d ar??? izzit cz I fall slp in car so d time passes fast?? but how cn tat possible...?? weird though........however having kinda good time at there.........at 1st v d 1st ppl reach there but then d planner not yet reach so v took out time to go to d beach for walk n shopping 1st.........6 ppl n 3 ppl per car lor.......wanna make it balance........then hostel kinda nice place to stay since it's air conditioner.......cool lor.........after v bbq n took out bath.........all d 6 bottle of casberg if not mistaken(name n amount) all done.......speed of light whole thg gone......but tat time is roughly around 1 d lor......wan go buy some more geh but then drivers drunk......face all red red like tomate.........kawaii lor~~


Then nite time I cnt slp well for d 1st time since is not my bed n I not yet familiar wit d bed.......I keep turn left n right whole nite......keep hoping when I open my eye is already morning wit d sun burn my feet........d most weird is go so far jz to go swim inside d hostel pool.......not beach but pool cz they say beach is damm dirty......well I support but then is veli weird lor go so far jz swim inside a pool......I still tot of plying motor ski lor........such a pity leh.......I wanted ply last time but tat time din bring suitable cloth.....now got cnt ply.....kek si d lor me~~ d bbq kinda nice lor......having a lot of fun at there........


Well I fall slp in car n now feeling kinda headache cz not enuf of slp n exposure to too much of sun......I long time din hit d sun for so long lor.........n usually I hit it in a glance not few hours.........now even cn imagine my sun is burning.........I mayb rili cnt drink anymore alcoholic drink cz my leg appear agn all those red red spot which show tat mayb I sensitive to d drinks~~ kinda pity cz I cnt drink it anymore lor~~ I wan drink d leh but now like tis make me veli kek sam~ 

yeah~~

Tml goin pd........but problem is duno wat time go lor.....n duno ltr I will look like allien bo leh.......cz as I knw usually I will d lor.....even many ppl say wont....XD......today study whole day d.....si beh pek cek lor no song listen....tat stupid hp no use d.....keep on problem problem problem.......deng kao tat hp........hope got money buy a new hp........luckily today noon bo tuition.....raining frm morning till nite maybe........love d cold wheather now........nice to do anythg cz wont sweat....but duno y my face so damm oily even is cold..........


Hope tml good wheather for me to ply on beach lor......I wan to take many pic but worry come back ltr I become a blacky lor......black black wit sun burn......skin peel of like snake skin.......tat time rili yeng d lor me.......XD duno when free to go out buy my durian mooncake..........wanted it allive so tat cn be eaten..........


Kk.....gtg d......wait for me to return ya~~~^^V

walao eh~~

Tml I got no tuition during d noon.....yeah......peace for me cz tml my chemis teacher got funeral to attend to so she sms all of us to cancel it.........then jz now I went out eat dinner wit my aunt they all......take so many many pic but then I thk all look ok nia lor......some more d food is beh pai lar..........wont so bad but problem is I don like eat crab n they oways call crab.......I duno n hate to eat it cz need to peel of d skin........some more its ntg special bout it.........when I don eat they say y don eat.......eat too much they say "wei, y eat so many??".......it's like taking which way aso wrong............back at my aunt hse eat cake some more......to celebrate my cousin birthday.........her cake ok lar......not rili so bad after all.......


I so get fuck off when my hp walkman give me an instruction saying "Memory full.Please delete one or more file to............."  So damm pissed off man......my hp ntg else more d still saying my memory full.....duno wat fucking company do tat ccb hp lar.........diu.........pek cek lor cz tis not d 1st time tis hp giving me so damm many trouble lor.......n most I important I emo today cz he say sell aloe n give me a hidden meaning saying no mooncake for me tis year....wan buy myself......okie la......fine.......I buy n eat myself.........I don aspect u will buy give me at all.......so now all remind me oways to independent.....don thk too much..........^^

aiya~~!

Aiyaya.....u c la hor.......my daddy suddenly ask my mum bout I got bf a not lor ystdy morning.......so kong bu leh.......then hor tell him le he like bo respond like tat geh......haix......sad sad lor.......rili suprising suddenly my dad ask my mum lor........now problem is when he wan find my dad lor.........cz actually I thk my dad wont how geh......I thk nia lar.........hehe..........but then now thk back I rili si beh curious how my dad will respond when c him leh~~ so hope d respond come faster~~ I wan to c my dad respond~~

hmmm~~

Well sorry for d late update.......cz I recently got no chance to stay wit my pc alone.....so hardly to update my bloggie....well tis is on sun tat is a veli happy day cz after he fin work he rili come find me leh.....some more bring "rendang".....quite nice lor but then look kinda oily like tat......then sun around 5+ I oni out ma....then out le ma call my mum tell her lor but then wat she did was keep on saying I break d promise.....dad is gonna be home soon so jz let me out lar......I don wan stay at hse wit dad......is veli boring leh wit my dad......then d bus chg d line d....wasai......need to wait another bus so damm long lor......then after I around 10 jiu at hse d leh.....so guai wor tat day~~wakaka~~ but then most shock for me is suddenly my dad duno wat happen copy my mum go kiss my face.......scare dao me lor........hehe~~~


Ystdy kinda nice aso lor.....cz morning wake up le do all d hse work d jiu go out le.....then out to klg by bus.........kinda fun at 1st time but then ltr on goin back time so bored lor.........then he even cn fall asleep in a so damm crowded bus leh.....geng dao........I wondering if he so tired then jz tell me he tired ma cn d lor......y wan so trouble himself to out wor?? but then I go out jz to acc him buy his pants......n suddenly when he reach back hse he still got pants waiting from him.......it's from his mum vacation.......so swt parents.......I wondering when my parent is goin to vacation n buy me some of these stuff........cz I feel like long time they din buy me any present...........sometimes wondering if my parent k bout present too.........

emo~

I rili don und y he wan to knw my everythg when I not rili knw his everythg.......he cn out wit his frend n not letting me knw sometime but I cnt........I did once n his respond is so huge......but then how bout me??? I not human while he is la now??? I tell him cz I don wan him simply thk but ended how?? he angry.....ya.....angry of  me out wit my boy friend's........then he out wit his gal friend's cn lar???  I out wit hu aso he wan to control....wan give permission........tat wat make me ystdy lie to him saying I out wit gal frend.......if not he sure babbling a lot n then make me bo mood out wit my frend......then oways wan my frend to take me go his shop after out wit them......it make my frend feeling like being used lor.........out wit them aso not true geh cz after tat need to send me go my bf place n purpose out wit them is cz wan to go to my bf place nia........some time I wondering y cnt he come find me by himself.....y when I out mz ended up goin his place n not my hse??? y when he out wit frend he cnt come my place?? y I out wit my frend I mz go find him?? y I no find him when I out he bo song?? tell me y ba........rili rili don und y I got tis thking d.......emo emo emo~~

haix~

Well I go out wit my frend to watch "Resident Evil Afterlife 3D".......tat movie not rili nice la....but then d 3D effect yeng lor...........then I thking did I do wrong decision by goin his shop let his mum had a bad image on me.........cz I duno tat he will cry on d spot while is he is talking hp wit me d ma.......I don wan let him knw cz I knw ltr all his pattern will out.......n I fed up y like oways his pattern out but my pattern nvr out??? jz like ystdy I go KL wit my frend Zander suddenly wan me back according to his time.......wan me to force my frend to take me back tat time no k wat my feeling tat time n if I don promise him sure a lot n lot of thg out his mouth......all those hurting words without k my feeling n my view.......I rarely go KL n now got chance to go he still wan to control me??? wan me to msg him n then go back to my hse asap?? my frend frm KL come fetch me wher will so fast take me back d wor......so far take me go KL go a while jiu back hu aso don wan do such fei stuff lar~~


Tat jiu suan lor.....don wan count wit him but then now I go out din tell him hu aso he wan like tis.....all d pattern......bo call me out now ppl wan take me out cnt........me haven rili marry to u.....even marry le still got freedom to out wit other ppl ok??? haven marry jiu still got chance to choose.........if don wan lost me then do somethg bout it lar........keep on wan me go find u now is me boy o u????haix~~rili bo und y I fall for him la.................cz now I got a feeling tat he is controlling all my action....even I out wit hu n do wat during tat time....wat I chat during lim teh he all wan to knw.......rili need to record all my chatting d lar......let him listen till enuf..........in future he saying tat he gonna do cosmetic so will out wit gal n all tat......I thk he wont tell me wat they chat even wat they did lor.........cz tat time when he say he wat aso will tell ended up wit laugh....which mean he wont tell me.......but I duno y I tell him all for wat.......rili hate myself~~~!!!!

reject reject reject~~!!!

Well........ystdy went out to watch movie wit Tony......watch tat "Piranha" agn......n I thk tat movie kinda nice when tat piranha eat ppl lor.....mayb I got mental problem d leh......suddenly like it duno y......n then I aso reject his offer to become his gf......cz jz knw few day wan me to decide a.s.a.p.......how can I possible do it??? I duno how is d real him n duno he suit me a not......I don wan hit wall agn......cz from d 1st look of it he rili got bit look like ah pek like tat.....by d way he wearing his shirt......then he din c his own qualification b4 searching for his another half........is impossible to attract gal when u don have a good phy wat............eg mz have a good face n nice figure.....he don have n suspect a gal tat is so perfect to fall for him??? which mean he wan a dumb ppl fall for him la??n he don wan tell ppl he got lots of money n he is boss son o wat so ever......n he is driving a nissan car??hu is so dumb till duno bout it??

I plan wan out at evening around 4+ then after fin watch movie I wan to find my panda geh.....but then he dint.....mayb he knw my planning tat y chg it lor.......aiya.....I don k lar......I jz don like him.......after d talk tat I had wit him I rili doubt he is a normal ppl a not......is he rili mature enuf a not cz I feel by d way of his thking he is like living in his own fantasy world.....wit such a bad qualification to find a such fine qualification gal........is nearly impossible to do such thg lar.......if u don chg some of ur phy impossible I tell u......cz fine gal request their another half wit high qualification aso ok??? stop dreaming d lar........cz if such fine gal wit u mean tat gal is either dumb nor jz betting wit her frend........hard to believe such fine gal fall for a ugly ppl without any purpose lor.........sure got purpose 1st then ltr oni rili fall for him.........

Cnt blame....his love experience is not good......he cnt thk it another way around.........saying a lot of rubbish to me n then a while ltr mean another thg.......rili salesman cn chg lies to thruth lor...........hmmm~~~actually I jz complaining bout him lor.......cz I rili don und y such a 24 years old guy cnt have a mature n more realistic thking geh???izzit he watch too much of anime o love story till he duno anythg tat is realistic??o mayb he too fall in chinese movie tat he watch??? weird guy lor..........wonder hu will be tat dumb gal fall for him??? hehe~~